Nerves
Time is getting close to having this baby, two weeks today and she will be here. I keep thinking WOW this doesn’t seem real. Last night I took Alyssa to the sibling class at my hospital she had fun and learned a lot and she discovered the mystery of breastfeeding SHEW thats a scary thing to talk about with a four year old HA HA. They showed a video of a little girl becoming a big sister and I was FIGHTING back tears especially when the little girl got to see her baby sister for the first time. Alyssa is SO excited and I’m glad because my biggest fear is that she is going to be jealous and fight this big sister thing.. I  never was this excited when my baby brother was born and still sometimes I don’t really like him. I just hope I can do this, I hope am able to divide my time equally between both of my girls, and that I can breastfeed successfully, and that I can handle the sleep deprivation in a calm matter without being hard on Alyssa. Millions of moms have successfully done this then I can too (I hope!!!)