:( Why me , Why me , Why me??? :(

Proudmom2Hope wrote: Hi everyone. I hope everyone is doing ok. I am in a major funk today and have been all day! I hope I dont bring anyone down.

It all started this morning. I am very upset and stressed over hope being in the hospital, my SIL that wont see her dad, and my FIL being diagnosed with terminal cancer! I snapped at my DH...all he asked me was where his work shirt was. I yelled and said am i the only person here that knows where your crap is? I felt like crap after saying it. He just looked at me and gave me a kiss on the forehead and said I understand huney! And went to work. I bawled on my bedroom floor for a half an hour! I then proceeded to the hospital to see Hope and when i got there there was a bunch of Doctors and a couple nurses around her isolette.I started to shake i was so scared. I use to work in the NICU so seeing that was not a good sign. I turned around and walked to the phone they have in the NICU for the parents to use for free. And i paged my Hubby! HE called me back at the NICU and i could not even say hi or anything! I just bawled! All i heard was CLICK! and within minutes my hubby was at the NICU. I showed him to where hope was and he almost lost it! So together we walked up to her isolette. The nurse that has cared for Hope from the begginning had this look on her face as if she saw a ghost! All she said was Hope develpoed a bad infection ...well actually the infection she was given antibiotics for didnt quite clear it up so when we all thought she was getting better well in fact she ended up getting worse. So she is back on a strong antibiotic! She is really fighting for her life. I just dont get it. She has been doing soooooooooooo well then all of a sudden BOOM this happens. She was supposed to be discharged in a few weeks.. Ive seen this happen so many times. Premies doing so well then for some wierd reason something like this happens.

I was at the hospital for the longest time then decided (actually forced by DH) to come home to grab a shower, and take a few deep breathes, and post on here as ive been thinking of you all and needed to talk to someone. I was about to leave the house to grab some dinner before going back to the hospital and i get this phone call! Its my MIL...she said my FIL is back in the hospital because he passed out. He is currently unconcious and havent woken up yet. It does not look good. So now i have to deal with this. DH left to go be with his dad and i am so torn. I want to be there for HOpe so she can feel my touch and hear my voice but i want to be with my FIL also.

I feel as if i am running on empty and need a vacation. I dont know what to do anymore!!!!!!!!! HELP i need a virtual hug guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A&A'smommy replied: Oh sweetie I'm SO sorry you have to go through this! I can't amagine what you must be feeling I just wish I could really be there for you! ((((BIG HUGS))) And tell Hope to hurry up and get better so she can be at home wiht her Mommy and Daddy give her my love! ((((((BIGGER HUGS))))))))

Jessy replied: I am so sorry all of this is happening to you. I just pray your beautiful daughter will be home with her family really soon

kimberley replied: oh Sharon, i am so sorry for all that you are going through i wish there was something i could do or say to make things better. my thoughts and prayers are with your family during this difficult time.

mckayleesmom replied: Big hugs and prayers Sharon....Hope things start looking up soon.

CantWait replied: I'm so sorry all this is happening Sharon. All I can do is offer you my support and prayers. I hope that HOPE gets better and continues to be a little fighter. Big hugs to you and your dh. I can't imagine how stressfull things are right now. You guys are tough though and I applaud you for sticking together

MomToJade&Jordan replied: Oh Sharon I'm so sorry. I hope and pray that things start to get better for you and your family. Hang in there sweetie. Just know that we are here for you.

Jamison'smama replied: I am so sorry Sharon, you are going through more than anyone should have to. Sending big bug hugs to you and lots of prayers and positive thoughts for your sweet baby girl and father in law.

amynicole21 replied: Oh no. I'm so sorry, Sharon. I don't know why this is all happening to you at once I'm praying for the health of your FIL and for Hope. We're here for you!

Kirstenmumof3 replied: OH Sharon I'm so sorry you are under so much pressure right now! It can't be easy seeing your child in the hospital everyday! Try to take care of yourself. I Hope gets stronger and that she will be home with both of you really soon! I'll be thinking of you!

ediep replied: Oh Sharon, I am so sorry!!! I wish I could say that I knew what you are dealing with, but I can't even imagine.



I don't know if you are a religious person or not, but just try to remember that God only gives you what you can handle....so try to keep that in mind. Stay strong and Hang in there.

Elle replied: I'm so sorry you're going through all this
Little Hope is in my thoughts and prayers.

Kaitlin'smom replied: I am sending tons of hugs to you and your family, I am so sorry things are looking so dim. I wish for Hope to get well fast. I wish I could do more for you. I will contuinute to keep your family in my thoguths. (((BIG HUG)))

5littleladies replied: I am so, so sorry you and your family are going through all of this. You will continue to be in my prayers.

MylittlePaige replied: May God be watching over your family and especially your little Hope. Keep fighting baby, Mommy and Daddy want you home safely. Please keep us updated. You are in my prayers.
Alli and Paige

coasterqueen replied: Oh Sharon, my heart just goes out to you right now. I'm so sorry about Hope and I PRAY that she fights this. She's a fighter for sure! My prayers are going to be on over-drive for you and I will light a candle for her tonight. ((HUGS))

It must be very hard to see her in the hospital every day and then with what is going on with your FIL, I had no idea.

I wish I could come there and give you a big hug. You need it. Hang in there, we are all here for you!!!

Lily replied: Oh man, I'm sorry this is happening. I will keep your precious Hope in my prayers okay?

Edited to say that your FIL is in my prayers too.

chloe&tysmommy replied: I am so sorry you have to go through all of this right now Your baby Hope will be in my thoughts and Prayers as well as your FIL....

dolfinrse replied:

I'm so sorry that all of this is happening. You and your family are in my prayers.

TLCDad replied: I'm so sorry all this is happening. You and your family will be in my prayers.

DansMom replied: I can't imagine what you're going through! You're doing such a good job and Hope could not have a better mommy and daddy than you two. I'm praying for your family

MommyToAshley replied:

I am sorry for everything you are going through. Your family is in my thoughts and prayers!

pinka_star replied: Oh my gosh, I am SO sorry!!!!!!!!

I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.

kit_kats_mom replied: I'm so sorry that your family is having such tribuations right now. I will pray for you all.

3_call_me_mama replied: Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.... keep strong for your little Hope!