A song that hit home!

mummy2girls wrote: When jordan was in the hospital(PICU) the doctor had told me and his dad that jordan may never wake up again(he was in a coma). I was devastated! I ran out of the room into the parents room they have at the hospital. I was bawling. jordans dad came into the room after me and he consoled me. Then he went to go turn on the radio they have in the room and a song came on... How do i live. (trisha yearwood...country). it was so wierd that song came on right after finding out i may never have my son alive. today is the 5th anniverasry of his death date and i was laying in bed surfing the tv channels. I came upon a country music festival thing they had on tv. And leanne rimes had came on stage and she sang that song! I started to bawl!!!!!!!!!!! all the emotions i was keeping insde came out at that time!

I WANT MY BABY BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kirstenmumof3 replied: OH Shelley I wish there was something I could do to make everything better for you! I wish I had some magic powers to make this all go away and you would have your little boy back! I'm so sorry you have to keep going through this!

amynicole21 replied: I'm so sorry, sweetie I think that crying is also a healing action, so go ahead and cry

Littlejojames replied:

So sorry! Wish that there was someway of helping you!

If you ever need to talk im sure that were all here for you any time you need us!

Kaitlin'smom replied:

I so wish I could take away your pain

mummy2girls replied: Thanks guys. Your careing words and support does help ALOT!

I just find it really hard on these dates.

Guest_angelhair replied: shelly, so many hugs and love to you right now. I know the ache is so terriable in your heart and I really cannot imagine it. I lost one to but not in the way you did, and I still cannot get it out of my mind. mine was am/c. we will give you the strength when you run out and so will God. you can lean on us.I do not know if you feel comfortable e mailing me with your address but i would love to send you a booklet on greiving called good grief or anything else that may help you on this journey. my email is dana02155@lycos.com. if you do not feel comfortable you can email me just to talk. I am so sorry you are going through this!!!!!!!!

DansMom replied: I'm so sorry too. It's unimaginable to me what you've gone through. Songs have a way of cutting through all of your defenses and getting to the heart of what you remember and what you feel associated with that music. I wish I could say more to comfort you---I know this is such a difficult time for you.

jem0622 replied: Just want to offer hugs.

Everytime I hear 'I Will Always Love You' by Whitney Houston I think of my daughter. It was very popular at the time that she was born.

kimberley replied: i wish i could come and just hold you. it is good to let it out sometimes. we are all here for you! much love to you.

MommyToAshley replied: Your post made me cry too. I feel the same way sometimes, and I still don't know what to say to help you feel better. So, I'll just give some hugs. I wish I was there to share a box of kleenex and give you a hug in person.

CMD3989 replied: I am so sorry there is nothing I can do to help you. I know exactly how you feel. Maybe there is something you guys can do as a family to celebrate the life of the baby you lost. You will get through this. I'm here if you need me.



Chelci

lsjulee replied: Sorry I'm a emotional person.

momof2girls replied:
I cant imagine how that must hurt and to any mommy that has lost their lil angel you are in my prayers to help your heart heal some!!!

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ctymom replied: My thoughts and prayers with you.

I have a very hard time hearing Tears In Heaven. It's about the singers son who passed away. I just break down and cry. I also have a hard time with Amazing Grace. I grew up with my Granny singing that song to me and so I always sang it to my kids. We sang it at my son's funeral and also during a dedication of play yard equipment to my kids preschool we had a bagpipe play for us. So, those are the two songs that really get to me. How Do I Live can upset me too. It usually doesnt make me cry... just makes me sad.

I hope you are doing ok.
Pamela

loveydad replied: I'm so sorry.

I sang "Butterfly Kisses" at my girls's funeral and I can't listen to it anymore. It breaks my heart.

When I found out Matthew was hurt, I was eating sunflower seeds because I was trying to quit smoking. I went back to smoking. I can't even look at sunflower seeds most of the time.

ctymom replied:
It took a long time before I could buy fruity bars again. Jason loved those. I'm able to buy them now... but it took about 5 years + before I could.

Pamela

momof2girls replied:

Guest_micah replied: I have been browsing different message boards & read your "story" &saw your pictures. Every time I get teary eyed & have a heavy ache in my heart for you. I catch myself thinking of you & I don't even know you. I too love that song. I dedicated that song a couple years ago to my 10 & 11 yr old. In fact, I was at wal-mart today & found a cd with that song & had to get it. You are in my thoughts & prayers.