Been MIA, a lot has happened! - Very sensitive some may not want to read

Kirstenmumof3 wrote: Well ladies full blown depression set in and I fell hard, very hard! I just couldn't pick myself up and I felt so lost, alone and scared! I've been in the hospital since Thursday evening, it's been such an emotional week and the repercussions for my hospitalization are so overwhelming! Our Childrens Aid Worker is not allowing me to be alone with the Children at all and Claudia will be starting Day Care on Monday because of this! I'm just devistated, absolutely devistated! I'm trying so hard, I really am trying! It just seems that I am just sinking faster and faster! I need to find something to occupy my time so that I am not sitting at home looking at Claudia's empty crib. This is just heartbreaking for me, she is my whole world and I will miss her so much! Right now I need all of your prayers! I need to find away out of all this misery!

mummy2girls replied: OH HUN I am so sorry. What you going through i can not imagine but i am goiung to say some prayers for you and i do hope you feel better soon. (((HUG)))

ediep replied: Oh Kirsten.....I am praying for you! I wish I could offer more, please hang in there

MommyToAshley replied: Kirsten, sweetie, I am soo sorry! My heart goes out to you, I know how much you want to get better. I will be praying for you. I just wish there was something else I could do. I hope you start feeling better again. Hang in there.

Just a thought, is there a friend or relative that can come stay with you one or two days a week so that you can have Claudia home with you part of the time?

aspenblue1 replied: I am so sorry. I will be praying for you.

Kaitlin'smom replied: I am soo sorry your having a ruff time. I know its hard to not have your babies around. I hope you can get better soon. Remember we are hear for you and I wish I could help you. I am sending you lots of .

amynicole21 replied: Oh Kirsten!!! I'm so sorry! You've been through so much - this is just awful. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts. I know you will be able to get past this - you are such a strong person! I'm here for you if you need me!!!

DansMom replied: This must be so disappointing, to fall into a depression again. I can tell from your posts that you've been fighting those feelings lately and trying not to let them take over. Keep trying to regain control---you've done it before, and that tells you that you can do it again. In the meantime, it might help to think positive thoughts about Claudia's time in Daycare: meeting new kids, learning new things. We're on your side and praying for you!

momma2jenna replied: God Bless You! I' ll being praying for you!

A&A'smommy replied: oh sweetie!!! Im so sorry your going through this!!!! I wish i could be right there and give you lots of hugs....You will be able to get through this and be with your children again!

kit_kats_mom replied: I'm so sorry that you have to deal with this. You are such a strong woman. I can't imagine how hard it must be on you though to not feel in control of your emotions right now. Please understand that as hard as it is for you to be away from you babies, the case worker is only doing what they believe is best for the kids.

Kirstenmumof3 replied: Oh I'm so overwhelmed right now! It has been such a difficult time for my family and I can't thank you all for your words of encouragement and support! You all mean the world to me! I've called the Canadian Mental Health Association and I have an appointment to meet with them on Monday. They have some programs to help people with depression and maybe this is what I need to get out of the house and be around other people! You are all os wonderful THANK YOU! I'm trying, really trying but it's just so hard!

kimberley replied: i am sooooo sorry for what you are going through. you are in my prayers that you get through this soon. We are all here for you if you need anything!

dolfinrse replied: YOu and your family will be in my prayers.

CantWait replied: I really hope you're feeling better soon. My heart goes out to you and I'll be thinking of you. Please try and cheer up

~CrazieMama~ replied: I am so very sorry that you are going through this. I will keep you in my prayers. I wish there was some way I could help you. Have you thought about a girls night out once a week or so? That would give you something to look forward to. I hope the programs will help you out. Please think positive and keep your chin up. It will get better. Hugs to you and your family. Know that we are here to help you in any way that we can. If you want, I can have you added to my church prayer list. They would love to pray for you and your family. I will be thinking of you.

Hillbilly Housewife replied: We all know you're trying your best hon!



Don't feel bad though.... it's important for you to feel good about yourself. Is there a small hobby you could focus on while Claudia is in daycare? Like maybe get a couple molds, and make chocolate, or candles or something.... or even a paint by numbers....

at least you could sell them on E-bay or something afterwards.... and it would take your mind of whatever's bothering you!

Hang in there Sweetie... we're all rooting for ya!

TLCDad replied: You and your family will be in my prayers. So sorry your going through this and hope you feel better soon.

jcc64 replied: Hi Kirstin,
You're on my mind. I know how it feels to battle the "demons" in your head. You know yourself that although it feels positively awful when you're going through it, it IS temporary, it will pass. In the meantime, do everything you can to demonstrate to the caseworker that you are working on getting well, and that of course your kids are everything to you. Know that although your kids miss you, they are safe and well taken care of. Just concentrate on getting well yourself, everything else will follow.
Good luck and peace to you

Schnoogly replied: Kirsten, is there any way you could take a less demanding part time job or some regular volunteer work while Claudia is in daycare and the kids are in school? I really think you need to DO something besides sit at home. I know I got a lot better once I went back to work part time and had something non-baby related to do. Even it it's going to the local old folks home it might remind you that there are lots of things you can do to make others feel better, if not yourself.

((((hugs))))

Maddie&EthansMom replied: ITA with Schnoogly. I really think it may help to get out every now and then and do something good for others. Nothing makes you feel better. At home everyone is so demanding of your time.

You are in my prayers. I am so sorry you are going through these ups and downs. You are so strong. You can and will overcome this.

((((HUGS))))

paradisemommy replied: i'm so sorry you are having such a hard time. stay strong and i will keep you in my thoughts and prayers always!