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Hi..jennifer wanted to type something - It may be too hard for some of you...


~Daddytobe~ wrote: This is Jennifer...Corey's sister, and Sharons sister-in-law. I read occasionally when my brother is online the things you have been saying about my sweet Leigha. My brother thought maby i should write something down to get things off of my shoulder. At first i did not want to and it took me quite a bit to actually want to...

First I just wanted to say Thank-you for all your sweet words. As i was reading it it brought tears to my eyes. I feel so giulty for causing my baby's death. If i just took that extra minute to make sure it was latched properly this would not be true and i would be holding my sweet baby in my arms. That noise i heard as she tumbled down the stairs is still haunting me to this day. She was just lieing on the floor motionless. To me it looked as if she was sleeping. My angel girl. I rushed her to the hospital so fast and when the doctors whisked her away all i could do was just stand there as my daughter faded down the hallway. A while later i was leaded into a room where she was hooked up to a thousands things. I could not tell what part of my baby i was touching. I leaned in toward her and i could smell her beautiful smell. She was laying there all swollen and bruised and broken all over. Then they proceeded to tell me she was in a deep coma and that she may never wake up. And if she did she may be severly disabled! My bright eyes baby may be in a wheel chair forever. I just hated my self at this point and wanted to die! I phoned my brother and bawled on the phone. He came the next day and he was my rock! He held me and carried me through alot of tough decisions. looking in his eyes i wondered if he blamed me for this accident and hated me for this.

He was there when they pronounced her brain dead and i collapsed in his arms. I knew that i wanted to donate her oprgans from the time they pronounced her brain dead. because i wanted my precious angel to help as many sick babies to live a long healthy life. The day they wheeled her into the or all i could do is kiss her good-bye and then i had to watch those doors close behind her. My knees buckled beneath me and i was on the floor unable to move. My brother was there to lift me up and help me back to a room in the hospital. We waited there as they took out her organs and when they were done i was able to hold her. they lead me to a place where they had her laying all covered in blankets. And i looked at her and held her hands. She looked so beautiful and peaceful. My brother leaned over to me and said Leigha is in the arms of God right now and she is happy and not hurting anymore. I then walked out the room and before closing the door i turned to see my brother hugging my sweet leigha and then he broke down. He was being so strong for me and when he finally couldtn be that rock he buckled and he lost it. I had a friend of mine try top get him but he had this death grip on her arms he just didnt have the heart to let go. but finally he did.

The hospital gave me a blanket she was wrapped in from the first day there. they took pics of her. And they even did this beautiful hand and foot cast of her. it is absolutely gorgeous.

Sorry if this was too long. And i am sorry if this i shouldnt of posted but i just wanted to type to someone i just didnt know who...

~Daddytobe~ replied: Thanks guys for listening to my sister..if you read her post. i just felt she needed to write something. even if it turned into something that didnt make sense. She just had so much bottled up inside her.

mckayleesmom replied: First of all....Im so sorry about your loss again. Im sitting here crying as I read your post and looking at my little girl in her walker eating her cinnomen twists from taco bell without a care in the world and I just cannot imagine her not being there. You are incredibly strong. Second of all...this is not your fault at all. This could have happened to any one of us. I don't personally have a baby gate, but I know its something I probably would never have thought of. Until Leigha. If I do ever get a baby gate I will always take that time out to check it because of her. I also posted about this in another forum and alot of people made sure there gates were safe because of her. May your daughters spirit live on and may time bring you comfort.

kimberley replied: (((Jennifer))) grouphug.gif grouphug.gif

don`t be sorry at all for posting... that is what we are here for, to listen. grouphug.gif please know this is not your fault. it was a horrible accident that could have happened to any of us. i am praying for you and your family. God bless.

paradisemommy replied: Thank you so much for writing back to us. It made me feel good to see that you had the courage to get on and be able to write us back. I have been thinking non-stop about you and your beautiful angel leigha along with Corey and Sharon and have been hopikng that you all find the strength to deal with this tragedy.

Please stop blaming yourself. This accident is not your fault. My darling son is 16 months old and when he wants something, he finds a way to get it no matter what. I'm sure leigha was the same way. I'm just saying this could have happened to anyone and who's to say that even if the latch was secured properly that she couldn't have somehow gotten it undone.

We have a Precious Angels forum here that you can go to and share some of your feelings with other families that have lost a child. I hope that you will remember us and know that if you need to talk and just get stuff off your chest that we would be more than happy to listen. Sometimes it helps to just sit down and write..I know because I do it all the time.

God Bless you and your family. You will continue to be in my heart.

CantWait replied: bawling.gif Jennifer I'm so sorry you had to go through this, and so sorry that your sweet Leigha is gone. I don't believe in any way was it your fault, everyone makes mistakes as parents and you shouldn't blame yourself. You did all you could to make sure Leigha was safe. Babies find a way to get what they what when they want it. Thankyou so much for the update and having the courage so soon after to talk about her. We're all truly blessed to have met your little angel and have heard about her angel.gif wub.gif

You're very strong for making the decision to donate Leigha's organs. So many people will benefit from your generosity.

I'm so glad that the hospital was so good to you in giving you the blanket and the prints. Thankyou again for your story and for sharing your little girl with us.

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A&A'smommy replied: I am so sorry for you loss!!! I dont even want to amagin what you are going through....i agree with the others i dont believe it was your fault!!! I told my dh and mother what happened and both of them were in tears..i showed them your sweet Leighs pictures and my mom broke down and my dh walked away not wanting to hear or think about it anymore!!!! I dont know what else to say except if you want to post anytime we will be here for you!!!! ((((((HUGE HUGE HUGS)))))

Kirstenmumof3 replied: grouphug.gif grouphug.gif I'm so sorry for your loss and I must appologize I am finding it very difficult to find the words, I just can not imagine what you are going through! Please do not blame yourself, it was an accident, just think of all those other babies that were saved by donating her organs! I am so sorry for your loss! grouphug.gif grouphug.gif

My2Carebears replied: Thank you for sharing your story! It brings tears to my eyes! I look at my sweet girls and thank god they are still here with us. I have Gates in 2 places in my home and the one by the stairs I check all the time, even more now that I read all of this. I am so sorry you lost your sweet baby girl. I truly hope That your able to get thru this and Know that she is with you everyday! How Lucky you are to have your brother and Sister in law to help guide you thru this horrible and tuff time!! Your in my thoughts and prayers!

coasterqueen replied: I am completely speechless and balling. emlaugh.gif

Jennifer, I am so completely sorry for your loss. I hope that in time you can find peace and know that your angel is always there for you. grouphug.gif grouphug.gif

jem0622 replied: Jennifer, I am so sorry about the loss of your daughter. Please do not blame yourself. You would not have run to throw the laundry in if you did not feel that the gate was secure. There are things that we do as parents and things happen.

I am so glad that your brother has been there with you.

My thoughts and prayers are with you and your angel.

Julie

jen replied: Jennifer grouphug.gif grouphug.gif I am so deeply sorry for your loss of Sweet Leigha. It crushes me to think of you blaming yourself, please try to remember it was an accident, and don't be hard on yourself as the others said, it could happen to anyone. Find your strength in God, and know that Leigha is an Angel and she is a live eternally in heaven, always young and always beautiful and healthy looking down on you. I pray for you to find strength and be able to one day heal. You are in my thought and my prayers.

amynicole21 replied: I cannot even begin to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I have tears streaming down my face thinking about your little angel, and your broken heart. I wish that I could express my sympathy better. Please know that you and your family are in my heart.


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