I Don't Want to Upset All of you Anymore - Saying GoodBye for a While

Kirstenmumof3 wrote: I can't do this anymore. My mental illness is too much for me right now. I know that a lot of you probably won't understand. Saying Good-Bye was not something that I wanted to do, but I'm not the person that joined this board. I don't know who I am anymore. And I don't want to upset any of you anymore. I'm so sorry I haven been an active member since I've come home. I wanted to be that person so badly, but that person is gone. I'm so sorry. I don't want to upset any of you anymore. When I'm in a better frame of mind, if that ever happens I will be back. But I wanted you all to know how Thankful I am for all of you, for everything you have done for Spencer and I. You are all such wonerful people.

My3LilMonkeys replied: I will miss you, but I understand if you feel you need to go. I hope that things start to look up for you and your family soon. You are an amazingly strong woman to have gone through everything that you have, and I wish you nothing but the best. I hope in the future you will feel up to returning.

You have not upset me at all, BTW.

mummy2girls replied: Oh hun i will miss you! i will be thinking about you while you are gone:( I wish i could do more!!

Jackie012007 replied: I'm so sorry you are having trouble... I have been dealing with depression and an anxiety disorder for a while now, dunno what you are suffering of but I hope you do what you need to feel better! Good luck

PrairieMom replied: please come back when things are better. You will be missed.

Bee_Kay replied: I didn't know anyone was upset.... but, I will miss you Kirsten. I hope you come back things at home calm down and you can get back to being YOU!
Take care..... you and Spencer are always in my thoughts!!

redchief replied: Kirsten, I understand the problems you're having and completely understand your need to leave us here for a while. I'm concerned that you don't feel you can find yourself and I only ask that you keep up the fight. The self you seek has been beaten up by heartache, illness and personal let downs, but that self is within you somewhere. Take some time for yourself. Know that even when you find the self that you lost, you must know that self will be changed. You have learned things no one should have to learn. You have lived in the shadow of fear and anguish. These things create irrevocable change. That isn't always bad. After all you need to reconcile yourself to those changes and what you will find is that you're stronger than you think you are. You can find yourself. You just have to understand that the self you seek has been tempered by your experiences. I'm going to miss you, but I look forward to hearing from you when you once again feel whole. Good luck and our prayers remain with you and your family.

luvmykids replied:
Kirsten you owe NO apologies to anyone here but I do understand that you need to take care of yourself right now. I will miss you and be thinking of and praying for all of you.

Nina J replied: I understand As others have said, you owe no apologies. You've always been a great person here, and I admire you for your strength and your kindness when everything seems to be against you

You'll remain in my thought's and prayers and I'll miss you. I'll be looking forward to the day you rejoin us, but until then, look after yourself and know we are always here for support if you need it

C&K*s Mommie replied: Take the time that you need for yourself, I wish you well. You will be missed, and I will still pray for Spencer.

amynicole21 replied: We are always here when and if you need us. You deserve to feel whole again, and that is my wish for you. We love you!!

jcc64 replied: Oh, Kirstin, I'm so sorry you're feeling badly again. Please don't let your illness turn you away from the people that love and care for you. I fully understand the desire to withdraw when that horrible cloud descends upon you- sometimes simple interactions with "normal" people only leave you feeling more isolated and out of step with life itself. Just remember, these horrible feelings come and go- you will feel better again- maybe not as quickly as you'd like, but you will.
In the meantime, understand that there is nothing that you could say or do that would turn us away from you. Take all the time you need, and when you're ready, we'll be right here.

ZandersMama replied: you will be missed..

MommyToAshley replied:
I couldn't agree more. Please don't apologize, and please don't feel like you have to be a certain way around here. If you need some time to yourself, then please take the time you need. But, don't leave because you think you have upset anyone here because that is not the case. We love and care for you no matter what -- through the good and bad times. You've shared the good times with us... I still get a chuckle out of the Claudia in the potato bin stories. So, don't be afraid to lean on us during those rough times.

Remember you always have a home here. I wish you lived closer so I could give you that hug in person. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. Hurry back.

redchief replied:
I agree totally with Dee Dee, Jeanne and all of the others. We are not fair weather friends, but friends through and through.

Jamison'smama replied: So very sorry this time is rough for you. You have been through things most of us can't imagine. You are a strong woman who held it together remarkably during Spencer's hospital stay and now you need some time to heal. We are always here for you and feel free to come and go as you feel comfortable--we'll wait.

Brias3 replied: your way. Though I wish it could be different, I understand why you feel this way. Please let us know if there is anything we can do along the way as you try and find your way back to how things were before. Best wishes to you and your family always! We're all here if you need to talk.

Boys r us replied: Kirsten, you have been through SO much lately! It would take a toll on anyone!
I completely understand that you need need some time to dedicate to you, please know that no one here expects you to be here full time..we all try our best to understand the limits that your mind and soul have been taken to with Spencer's sickness..but in the end, there are probably only a handful, if that many, who can really relate and understand the gravity of being a mom of a really sick child and I don't pretend to be one of them...so what I'm saying Kirsten is that so many times you've been here for so many of us and now we've had a chance to be there for you as best we could...and part of being there for you means understanding that you need some time away! Please take all of the time you need, but also remember that this isn't an all or nothing commitment here..PLEASE check in and pop on when you're able, we love you dearly and want to continue being part of your support system..the way you ahve been for so many of us in rough times!!

Cece00 replied: I really hope things get better for you soon. Good luck

Halo42101 replied: I am so sorry, Kirsten. I wish I could be of more help to you. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Please come back soon! We'll miss you.

garrettsmom replied: Take care of yourself, we'll miss you. I've struggled with anxiety and depression for years, so if you ever need to pm me, please feel free.

AlexsPajamaMama replied: I'm wishing you well Kirsten during your hard times
You will be missed hun

ions_momma replied: You will be missed. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. We are all here if you ever need to talk.

Sarah&Mackenzie replied: My thoughts and prayers are with you!!

mammag replied: You will certainly be missed! Like everyone else said, we are here for you, come what may.

gr33n3y3z replied:
That is so true

Love ya

C&K*s Mommie replied:

lesliesmom replied: Kirsten, you have been through SO much lately. It's no wonder you feel lost. I pray that you find yourself and return to us soon. We will miss you and will be here when you're ready to return.

Continued prayers for you and your family. God Bless you all.

holley79 replied: Kirsten, you will remain in my thoughts and prayers. Please come back to us soon. If you ever need a shoulder we all have plenty here for you. I will miss you.

Kaitlin'smom replied: Will miss you. Get some rest, take the time you need. Remember we are here for you when ever you need us good or bad. I will be thinking of you alot.

DVFlyer replied: BTDT..... take a break and focus on "you". Come back when you're ready. We'll be here to welcome you back.

kimberley replied: honey, understand you are no burden on us. that's what friends do.. try to be there and lift each other up. i do hope you come back after your break. we care about you and will miss you. continued prayers to you and your family.