I am LOSING it. - vent

Hillbilly Housewife wrote: I<m just about fed up with everything and anything. I know it's likely just hormones kicking in, maybe a bit of the blues... but I don't want to see anyone or talk to anyone, i just feel like sleepng.

Since Naomie was born, I had had 13 hours of sleep total until last night. I got fed up with DH and the kids, threw a fit, took Naomie and went into myy room...she was fussy, I was so tired I was crying... anyways at about 9 she was finally asleep.

Dh tried to help by taking her while I tried to sleep... but se ujst wanted to comfort suck - not a paci or a finger - my breast - so hearing her crying wasn't goping to let me sleep more... so I took her.

When I finally put her to sleep, Dh comes to bed - and almost immediately startes snoring. Naomie startles esaily sometimes... snoring did it, she was squirming - I had just spent like an hour tryiong to soother her!!! so I kicked him out of the bed, telling him that I wasn<t going to be putting her back to bed every few minutes because she was waking up from his snoring...

naomie and i slept off and on from 9 to 8 this morning - waking up ilke 4 times in the night to breastfeed.

I feel so much better this morning... but i still hate the world.

i apologize in advance if i say anything mean today - i feel really bit**y and i really don't mean it... so please edit my posts if they're too hormonal

b&bsmom replied: Been there Done that.
My dh never hears the kids when they wake up and there would be nights I would try and make a lot of noise because I was mad that he was sleeping and I wasn't. It is normal. We all go through it. At least your dh even tried to help. My dh just feels like he doesn't know what to do. Don't get me wrong he is great but you just get into that mood where nothing is going to make you happy. It will pass. If not talk to your doctor about it.
Try to take care of yourself. I know it is easier said then done. However if you are upset baby will notice and be upset too. You can't take care of baby if you don't take care of yourself.
Hoping you have lots of sleep and start feeling better soon. I don't know where you are but I know it is a nice day here. Go for a walk get some fresh air. If you need to vent feel free to do it here.
You can also pm me if you want to happy to hear your vents and help the best I can.
Hope you have a good day.
Passing along P &PT's your way.
((((((HUGS)))))))

ammommy replied: Oh, I remember those days
You need sleep to function, but you can't sleep so you can't function. It's a vicious cycle. Vent away, we won't take it personally.

Hillbilly Housewife replied:
I should probably mention that the baby is exempt from my wrath - i'm like jekyll and hyde with the world and my baby

lol

coasterqueen replied: Sounds like to me you are adjusting to the breastfeeding. I remember very clearly feeling that way with Kylie. She wanted to nurse every 2 hours for 45 minutes (at least) every time so she was ALWAYS nursing. When she wasn't nursing she needed constant holding or she was crying. It was so exhausting I cried and cried and cried and hated everyone and anyone around me. I cried so many tears I think I needed a boat to float myself out.

Rocky, Naomie is going through growth spurts and that's why she wants to comfort suck. That comfort sucking is bringing your milk level up so she gets what she needs to grow and be healthy. She will go through a LOT of growth spurts til she hits 3 months of age. They go through them the first few days they are home, then 7 to 10 days, 2-3 weeks, 4-6 weeks, 3 months, 4 months, 6 months and 9 months. Now those time frames are generalized, babies have their growth spurts whenever they feel like it, lol. Some growth spurts can last all the way up until the next one, some last a day, some last a week. Yes, they are very draining, tiring, and emotional but they are needed for the baby. It's a whole natural thing going on that they go through these spurts, it is ultimately to bring your milk supply up to the level it needs to be for her. Giving pacifiers, sugar water, formula, other things like that only hurts this process and hurts the baby in the long run. Course I gave Kylie a pacifier before I knew about growth spurts but once I finally realized WHAT she was doing was not her being evil but a natural process I felt much better and didn't give the pacifier as much (only during sleep mainly).

Just hang in there. It DOES get better. The first few weeks of nursing is draining, by the time you get to 3 months.....it's a piece of cake. It usually gets that way before then, but the spurts spread out a bit more by this point and it's smooth sailing.

Hillbilly Housewife replied:
thanks karen - that made me smile!

I'm letting her suckle as much as she wants... but i need to pee sometimes.

i forgot how draining this could be... i wish someone would come and clean my house and cook for me.

coasterqueen replied:
Hey Rocky, you mean you haven't learned how to pee and breastfeed a baby at the same time?

amymom replied:

Hillbilly Housewife replied:
Ha!

I have... but why should I do it if I don't HAVE to?

DansMom replied: It does get easier. Hang in there. Put the older kids to work and helping around the house as much as possible. I remember sometimes thinking that I might literally die of exhaustion. And I only have one!!

mysweetpeasWil&Wes replied: Why doesn't someone cook and clean for you?? What about DH? What about family and friends? This is the time you need them most and they should be offering up their time for you.

All I can say is things will get better...you know that, you already have two! It's normal to feel the way you feel. I'm not looking forward to those days again, but I know it's coming for me!!!

MyLuvBugs replied: Oh sweetie don't worry about it. We all get that way sometimes, and you've got a lot going on right now. Tell that husband of your's to take the other two kids out to dinner tonight and you and little naomie and get some rest and relaxation.

angelhair replied: I understand sweetie! it is hard in the postpartum period because your hormones are out of wack and you can feel easily overwhelmed and weepy. that is normal. can you take a break? ask hubby to take the kids and you go for a walk or go outside the house for a while? you can always pm me and i will respond. hang on it does get better love dee

CantWait replied: I'm so sorry. I totally know what you're going through. Hang in there, eventually it does get better. Try and get some rest, and believe it or not some fresh air will help also.