I am so blue today

redplaydoh wrote: I hate days like this. I don't know why I get in these moods. I start out being a little blue but I just can't leave it at that. I start having my own personal pity party and end up painting the picture black. It's days like these that I question why we moved here. I go through all the things I miss, things I can't have, and it just snowballs to the point I'm close to tears if not crying. Most of the time I'm happy with our decision and I can't pinpoint anything that brings this type of mood on. But right now I'm glad DH is at work because I'd tell him to start packing if he were home.

Tomorrow I'll probably be just fine and won't regret that we're here. But today this just blows!

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cameragirl21 replied: i'm sorry to hear you're feeling down, DeAnn, but you are very brave, i don't think i'd ever consider leaving the US to move to another country, you've made a lot of sacrifice for your family.
maybe hubby owes you a long holiday in the US.

Old Mom Hubbard replied: Sounds like maybe a hobby/activity you should be trying to get involved with. Maybe writing a journal or working on that novel or biography? Try getting into arts/crafts of some kind, painting or sewing. Maybe sign up for a Yoga, meditation, or church or other group of your faith/spiritual choice?

I too get into those blue moods, very badly some days that I do not want to leave the "condo box" we rent in Condo-box city! BUT I get up, get dressed and go for a walk and look at all the birds in the trees, listen to them sing, or watch the squirrels and lizards. Even in the crowded city I am amazed at the little things and how such beautiful plants and flowers can manage to grow yet they do. And the birds and the places they find to nest. I go for a good brisk power walk and after just 20 minutes or so, my mood is MUCH imrpoved! If too cold or hot outside I will walk in place or just around the condo'box and use a bit of imagination on seeing a beach, or whatever. We do have a stationary cycle and step machine now, so I will use those on with days of inclement weather. I have also become involved more in work (I work investigative field part time) and will be going back to school soon..next week actually to take up a language course. My hubby a programmer working full time but he is working on a program of his own and some other ideas that are computer related so he can eventually be 100% self-employed.

My depression is more psychological than clinical and the doc tells me the very best thing for MANY forms of depression is to take a good walk, or some form of exercise to get the blood flowing AND to get involved with a fun hobby.

I wish you the BEST of luck in finding something to give you joy.

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Calimama replied: I hope you feel better soon.

stella6979 replied: Sorry you're having such a rough day. I hope things start looking up real soon.

luvmykids replied: I had very similar feelings just moving to another town, I can't imagine another country. You're very brave and courageous, I hope tomorrow is much better.

Anything I can send you to help?

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Kirstenmumof3 replied: I'm sorry you are feeling down today! Just wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you and I hope that tomorrow will be better!

redplaydoh replied:
That's so nice for you to offer to send me something. I think it would be hard to mail the things I'm missing... unless you find a box big enough to fit a Target store into.

Unfortunately the other things are not able to be mailed either. I want a Diet Mountain Dew so bad I could scream. Isn't that silly and pathetic? I want to be in familiar territory and take my kids to all these really fun places I used to take them to, places that were close and inexpensive if not free!

I want to buy roast beef that isn't $32.00 a pound. Everything here is so dadgum expensive.

I called DH at work crying and he took off work early and picked us all up. We went grocery shopping and then he treated the kids to McDonalds so we could all get out a bit and not worry about cooking.

It will be a while before we can get back to the US. Right now we simply can't afford it... as for joining clubs/organizations that can't happen until I learn the language more. The few things they do have in English are in the Zurich area and that just isn't possible now transportation wise.

Thanks everyone, a good cry and venting here did a world of good. Except now my eyes feel raw. I hope tomorrow will be better. DH also reminded me that in 6 weeks Bryan will be 3 and there are a few places I can take them to play while I shop. That I'm definately looking forward to.

Kentuckychick replied: Sorry you're feeling a little down in the dumps today, I've been feeling that way a bit lately, but for different reasons. I hope that things start looking up for you soon and that you're able to find peace with your situation. I still think it's wonderful what you were willing to sacrifice for your family.

I do have this quote hanging here by my computer desk that has helped me a lot this winter... thought I'd share it with you.
It says;

"If ever there is a time when things seem to be getting to hard, or the world is getting you down and you want to give up.
Think of all the things in your life that make you smile...
And then LIVE for THOSE things."


Hope you feel better very soon!

luvmykids replied:
I probably can't fit a Target store into a box but I sure try to fit most of it into my trunk when I go

At least there is McDonalds, something familiar at least, although it's probably very different and European I'm sure. I'm glad DH is able to be supportive and yes, once you can drop the kids off and do some things on your own you will feel a lot better, maybe you could even take a language class? Hang in there, it is a huge adjustment and you're handling it very graciously