I confess... - Confess whatever you like

NEWMOM05 wrote: We did this on another board and it helped get some stress out. confess as often as you like.

I confess...


I made fudge tonight and want to eat the whole thing tonight.

I get frustrated with Kathryn then feel bad about it later on as she is just an infant.

Would rather sleep all day than clean my house

I have no patience for meanpeople right now and really want to tell them off but haven't

I talk too much, but don't really care becasue it's who I am

Know chocolate isn't good when nursing, but can't seem to stop myself

I am really scared of moving away from my family.

Really dislike having to tell my Dh 5 times to please take out the trash and clean the cat box

Worry all the time that something I post will be taken wrong

Worry that someone will send me a mean post

can't sing well, but like too.

Now it's your turn to confess. Let it all out. No one should judge you for how you feel. Happy confessing.

C&K*s Mommie replied: okay.... I too cannot sing well, AT ALL but I do it anyways in the car, or in the house.

I have two left feet, you will never see me dancing on any dance floor, unless it is a slow song.

Nina J replied: Okay, I have one. Hopefully no one thinks badly of me

I'm so worried that I'm not a good mother, and I won't be able to handle baby number two. I havn't told anyone, but sometimes I get so stressed out about it that I have a shower and cry

And some more

I spent a grand while I was shopping the other day and havn't told DH. He'd freak. I probably won't ever tell him because I pay the bills and he won't find out..

I ate half a jar of peanut butter a few days ago, I'm craving it so bad I could've eaten the whole jar but stopped myself..

I was the one who lost my mother diamond earrings over 20 years ago. She still talks about it, but no one knows it was me who borrowed them without telling and lost them. I feel bad about it even still

That felt good...This is a good idea

CAMSMOM1 replied: I confess...

That I give into Cam more often then I should. I spoil him. And I swore I wouldn't be one of those Mommies!

That I hate, hate, hate cleaning the house. And I wish DH would help out more with the chores.

I know I should go on a diet, but then I love to eat! And I talk myself out of going on a diet, all the time.

I have road rage! I can't stand when slow drivers are in the fast lane, and I admit that I tail gate more than I should, and I honk my horn!

I haven't gone to the doctor for the skin rash on my leg. Mostly cause I don't want to take the time to do it, pay the 20 bucks, and I'm a procrastinator!

I have also worried about what I post, and "offending" people. I'm a VERY outspoken person, and get myself in trouble for speaking what's on my mind. But hey, at least you never have to guess how I'm feeling.

I admit, I'm jealous my sister lost 100 pounds. And I wish I was her.

I stay up way to late, and I kick myself in the morning.

Well that's enough confessing for me now. I do feel better!

C&K*s Mommie replied: Today, I confess that I am goinf nuts over getting something sweet. I held off except for a couple of cinnamon disks, but I am craving sweets.

mysweetpeasWil&Wes replied: I confess I gave Wil a little spank today without warning. I don't like to spank and never thought I would do it, but for some reason I did...he didn't cry, but he looked confused and I about cried right then and there.

I confess that I'm scared to death about having another baby...not about L&D, but about managing it all. I'm going nuts with only one lately and I feel like a bad mom with just one kiddo!

I confess to being flakey to my friends lately, at least to the ones that are distant, because I can't find the time to call them back...and a part of me (I confess) just doesn't feel like talking lately. So I guess I confess to ignoring their calls.

I confess to being snappy and mean to DH a lot lately...probably because I'm PG, but he so doesn't deserve it.

I confess to hating my job a lot lately too (SAHM that is). I'm so sick of the routine!!

luvbug00 replied: I confess I'm a debate junkie. I love to argue! ( arguments about topics and not getting personal in my eyes attacking solves nothing )

I confess I still have nightmares and have to stop myself from yelling for my mom

I am PETRIFIED of the dark.

I confess I just ate myas popcicle at the ER.

My3LilMonkeys replied: I confess it drives me absolutely CRAZY to know that we have bills that need to be paid - some are even a little late - and DH spent $130 last week on Xbox games. But I don't want to be a wife that tells him what to do and I hate arguing over money so I didn't complain.

I confess that I'm having a really rough time with my diet right now and I'm thinking about giving up and just being fat.

CAMSMOM1 replied:

Sounds like my DH. He just bought a PSP, with a gift certificate. But then he bought some games, out of our pocket. And just told me about it!


And don't give up on your diet. Keep going girl, you are doing great! You guys are my inspiration, so hang in there! Remember what you wrote in my post about feeling mad at myself? You told me to do it today, or I"ll never do it at all. So take your own advice, go out there, get it done, and you'll be glad you did this summer! We all have days like that, just push those thoughts aside, and give yourself some credit for everything you've accomplished so far.

holley79 replied: Ok here goes:

I confess:

I am kind of happy to go back to work just because I miss my friends.

Tonight I ate 5 slices of pizza.

I ate a WHOLE pint of Ben and Jerry's.

That's all I am willing to confess right this mintue.

Nina J replied:
Me too! The only reason I don't sleep with the light on is because DH is there. If I have to sleep by myself, the light is always on. DH jokes about it all the time

PhiMuMommy replied: ok my turn.

i confess:

i am also terrified of the dark if im by myself every light in the house is on and all the doors are locked. (closet doors are opened too.. yes i'm paranoid)

i'm scared to look out windows. i am always afraid someone is going to be looking back ....

i blame Alex for a lot of things that aren't his fault. (like my not being able to go overseas for school, my not having a good position in my sorority... things like that)

i am getting a second job not only to help with bills but to get away from alex for a while. (he's been soooo rotten lately.. it grates my patience and nerves) it doesn't help i've been stressed either.

i hooked back up with alex's dad after swearing i never would. (and we are kinda trying for another.. how stupid am i?)

i'm a horrible friend. i have barely any sympathy for people and most of the time unless it is something major i ignore what my friends are crying about. (i listen just not closely..) if it is major i'm there for them.. but.....

i have felt like crying for about 3 weeks now and i'm not really sure why.. just overwhelming stress in general.

i hate my grandmother and could care less whether i see her anymore. no i dont' want her to die.. but i just don't want to visit her anymore. (she is rude and two faced and is the most horrible person i know. and i have a story to prove it if you guys want to know why i say that. )

ok well i guess that is all for now.

luvmykids replied: Lets see, do I want to open this can of worms? I'll dip a toe in ...

I Confess:

I wait until DH is asleep to make brownies because I can and will eat the entire pan myself and don't want to share.

I lie to my kids. About being out of cookies, about a certain show not being on "right now", about what time it is. (The closer it is to bed time, the more I lie!)

I miss working sometimes, just because I feel like my brain is turning to mush and I miss social interaction.

I miss Friday Happy Hour with my friends.

I spend too much money on stupid stuff.

I pretend to sleep through s** sometimes.

I can't keep a plant alive.

I don't hug and kiss my kids enough.

CAMSMOM1 replied: Time for more confessions from me!

Tonight I went shopping at Target and Best Buy. I spent way to much money. I went to Best Buy to get a vaccum, and left with a Video Camera. And we now have 6 dollars left in our bank account. Thank goodness tomorrow is pay day!

I love to pop pimples, especially Justin's! He thinks I'm a freak, but it's a stress reliever for me!

I hate the color of my hair. I've always been a blonde until recently, and I really want to go back blonde. Blond's have more fun anyways!

I haven't bought new clothes for myself in over a year! I wear the same outfits over and over again.

Today I cussed someone out in the car, that was driving to slow.

I'm the most disorganized person on the face of this Earth! I lost my Social Security card, and it's holding up the process of refinancing our house. I don't know where all our important paper work is, and all my drawers in the house are considered "junk drawers."

I haven't washed our sheets on Justin & my bed for 3 weeks! (I wash Cams every week.) But poor DH! I don't hang up any of the clean clothes. They just stay in the laundry basket, and we wear our clothes wrinkeled. I have only ironed ONCE in my life! I just throw the clothes in the dryer for a few min. That seems to work!

I smoke a pack a day. Mostly at night. I never smoke around Cam. And I wish I could quit. But it freaks me out!

If I was rich, I would get a tummy tuck. I have a HUGE complex about my stomach. I call it my "kangaroo pouch!"

I'm an evil witch when I'm on my AF. Poor DH, he usually gets tortured for a week!

C&K*s Mommie replied: I gave into my sweets craving last night, I had a Little Debbie zebra cake snack. It is not a carnal sin to do that, but I "gave in" anyways.

Crystalina replied: Wow, now it's my turn to let it all out.

I confess that I say every four letter word known to man on a daily basis and now poor Evan is picking up on it.

I crave cigs every day (I quit 4 years ago because preg. with Izabella) and I'm totally freaked that one day I'm just going to put SpongeBob on and go outside and start puffing away.

I reach for chocolate instead of cigs which is the reason I'm a chocoholic and my butt is growing like a wild weed.

Sometimes when Izabella talks to me when I'm busy I don't hear a word she says but I agree with everything and regret it later.

I hate my DH's hunting dogs because they are a little retarded. I guess it's not the dogs fault.

I hate that DH works away from home but then hate it when he's home alot.

I complain about the price of toilet paper but today I paid $107.00 on diet pills.

I need a major caffiene boost every morning just to function.

I throw things in the dryer to get the wrinkles out because I don't want to take my iron out and use it.

I get really ticked when my mother calls me and tells me how large my butt is getting when hers is twice the size of mine.

I'm not as nice to people as I used to be. Now if I get a look I'm giving it back and if I recieve attitude I'm giving that back too.

Sometimes I have a boo-rattling moment when I just want to take someone in the store and shake the you- know-what out of them because they insist on blocking an isle at Wal-Mart.

I miss being in my 20's and going out with DH and not having a care in the world.

There are times when I miss my Alzheimers patients and want to stop in for a visit but I know that going to visit them will just mess up their day so I don't go.

I spend way too much time on the computer. It's almost 3:00am and look what I'm doing.

C&K*s Mommie replied: I am in my late 20's and I miss that too.

CosmetologyMommy replied: I need to lose weight and I remind myself there is always tomorrow

Sometimes I leave the house at night for "milk" or "bread" and go to the farthest store away just to get some me time

I still fantasize that I will be famous one day

I still wonder where my first boyfriend is today

I hate my haircut! I let a girl at school cut it before I graduated and she jacked it up!

I can eat a whole carton of chinese food

I buy clothes and makeup all the time, even though I do not like my size!

luvbug00 replied:


ditto, but not the c word.

I confess I go out every friday night with my girlfriends and get zoinked but i'm always home by 2. If I don't get that releace i take it out on EVERYONE.

I confess I don't like spending all this money on my wedding. I wish my dad would give me a budget instead of telling me "whatever you want".

I confess that I WILL loose it when my favorite cat 18year old Murphy dies. He is my first baby and I adore him!!

I confess I can eat a whole pack of peeps alone and as many marshmellow eggs as I can get to.

I confess I have lost tuch with my religon and I'm not sure where I want to be spiritualy.

Kated replied: Ok, I cnfess that when I have a bad day I take it out on my husband and make him say sorry for yelling. Ive been trying to be better but its hard to be wrong!

luvmykids replied:
You are not alone!!

Crystalina replied:
I hate that one also. It's just disgusting.




My cat, Baby Kitty, died 2 years ago in his sleep on Christmas day. He was 15 1/2. I've had him since junior high and it was heart wrenching. We were in the process of buying our farm so I didn't want to bury him at the old place knowing that we were going to move. I told him that I'd never leave him so I had him cremated and now he's sitting discreetly (sp) on a shelf in the living room.

TANNER'S MOM replied: I confess!

That I lost 70lbs and hit my goal weight and since then I have gained back 3lbs. I lie to everyone and I refuse to admit those 3lbs. I have no idea why I gained them back, except it was a ruff week around here and we ate fast food to much!

I confess that when I am talking to Abbie on the phone and my Dh beeps in on the other line, I let it ring. And I tell him it's cause I was talkign long distance.

I confess that I hide from my children.

I fake sleep in the morning when Tanner is up, and I don't want to get up!

I confess I rountinely take an hour and a 1/2 lunch break and act like it is nothing, and always make my assistant late for lunch. I feel bad but I want to do so much on my lunch break!

I confess that Brittany drives me crazy, b/c she is so much like me.

I confess that I like to dress, Umm shall we say..flashy these days and it's drives Dh and Brittany crazy and I don't care. It cost alot of money to dress this cheap..and he doesn't know how much either

I am done for now.. I may be back!

luvmykids replied: OK, I'm back.

I Confess:

I have leftovers in the fridge that are I-don't-know-how-old. I'm tempted to just throw out the container and all rather then chance what I might find!

When DH falls asleep on the couch I leave him there, even though he always asks why I didn't wake him up to go to bed.

I've removed batteries from the kids toys and said "Hmm, doesn't work anymore. We have to get rid of it."

I don't trust DH with money at all. Even though I spend a lot, at least our bills are paid.

I'm letting the kids completely zone out in front of the TV this morning. The house is so clean I'll do anything today to keep it that way.

kayla's mama replied: I confess....

I tend to over eat. But it always taste so good.

I don't really care for my FIL.

I tolerate my MIL.

I don't keep a clean house. We have "originized" piles....everywhere. But hey they are orginized

I hate what my DH does for a living only because of the hours.

I confess that we tend to live outside of our means.

Oh there's more but I won't bore y'all all at once

punkeemunkee'smom replied: I know and I confess I do it too!


I confess that I am spoiled and I like it that way.

I confess that I spend alot of money on Taylor and things she really doesn't need and then I feel bad about it later.

I confess that I am HORRIBLE about putting the laundry away.

I confess that I am tired ALL the time and yet I am still not taking my medication the way I am supposed to.

I confess I take things out on Bill that are not his fault-like the fact that my parents moved and his are out of the picture and Tay is missing Grandparents

I confess that I am so worried that I am not being the best mom I should be.

I confess I am sick of being this fat!

I confess that I talk ALOT

Ok that is enough for now.....

kayla's mama replied: I forgot some....

I confess that when MIL calls I either let the machine get it or if I'm on the phone I don't click over to get it.

I confess that I really don't want to try to redo my friendship with my best friend from high school...its just too much work.

I also confess that I have a hard time making friends. I'm way to shy.

Ok, I promise thats all for now!!!!

Crystalina replied: I confess that I LOVE this thread because I can relate to everyone elses confessions and I realize that I'm more normal then I thought.

punkeemunkee'smom replied:
I was just thinking the same thing! Maybe I am not as as I give myself credit for!

C&K*s Mommie replied: I confess that I hate to talk on the phone, and anyone who knows me knows that 99% of the time the answering machine gets it, and I seldom call back right away if at all.

I confess that I have a southern accent, that gets me strange looks and it irks me so much that I use a low voice around people I am not comfortable with (or do not know).

TANNER'S MOM replied: I confess that I had 3 little peanut butter reece's balls that my Mom made the kids today. It was so good! I think better than you know what.

I confess that I lose my temper way to much.

I confess that I argue with Brittany so much, b/c we are so much alike, and I refuse to let her have the last word.

I confess that I leave clothes in the washer and then gripe when my towels smell funny!

I confess that I hate to pump gas and if Dh is going to drive my vehicle I dont get it..and it has caused him to run out of gas more than once

I confess I buy things now, clothes and make up wise that I never tell DH. When he asks where I got them. I say Oh I have had it forever!

EvesMom replied:
I second that!

Bee_Kay replied: I saw this a few days late and I wanna play!!!

I am HOPING nobody thinks terrible of me with some of my confessions


I confess that I am spoiled and get pretty much whatever I want sooner or later.

I confess that my DH and I spoil our children.

I confess that even though I miss my SD and worry about her, her not living here is kind of a relief (I don't have to deal with her BF on a daily basis).

I confess that sometimes I have lazy days and then do speed cleaning before DH gets home from work.

I confess that I can be very judgemental of other people at times.

I confess that I sometimes get jealous when a friend or family member gets something new.

I confess that sometimes I would rather sit here and read PC than talk to my friends on the phone.

I confess that I do still like the Bee Gees

Brias3 replied: I confess....

I give in to my kids way more than I ever thought I would as a parent.

I spend way too much money on stuff we really don't need.

I still, to this day, don't really like one of my brother-in law's.

Even though my husband is gone alot, I don't mind it all of the time.

I sometimes pretend I don't see someone if I'm not feeling like a hello that day

I am addicted to Starbucks.

I wish my husband and I would have had more time of just "us" before we had kids. (Even though I love them dearly!)

I could sleep till 11 each morning if I didn't have kids.

I sometimes miss working.

I wash my hands about five million times a day and I'm borderline germaphobe I think!

I really don't like my new cell phone (Story behind this: My husband recently bought me the pink Razr phone because its my favorite color but I hate the Cingular version of it- its like a watermelon reddish color....I just don't have the heart to tell him when its something as silly as a phone color.)

I don't get to church every week like I want to and should.

I screen my calls 100% of the time and don't pick up if I don't feel like talking to that person.

Bee_Kay replied:

OMG! I totally do that too

luvmykids replied:
OMGosh Bria, you could've torn a page out of my journal!!! Especially about DH being gone a lot .... sometimes, when he's gone and the kids are asleep, I can really pretend I'm all by myself!

Brias3 replied:
I know the feeling! Sad part is, I don't half mind the notion of being alone once in awhile

luvmykids replied:
For whatever reason, when he's gone and I'm "pretending" I'm home all alone, I do things I don't do when he's here. I pig out on junk food, take bubble baths, read magazines, paint my nails, I totally indulge myself after the kids go to bed. I guess it's b/c when he is here I feel like we have to make up for him being gone and hang out. Which I love too, I just tend to put myself on the back burner.

Chiflata2003 replied: My confessions are:

I wish I never pushed my dh to join the military. I'm not cut out to be an Army wife like I thought I was. It's so hard being alone.

I'm scared to be alone. When my dh isnt home I check every closet and have every light on and force myself to stay up until I pass out on the couch. When I go some where and come back I check every closet and even the bath tub to be sure no one is here.

I do believe my dh isnt sexually attractive to me anymore. What happened tonight proves it.

I hate being fat, but can sit here and drink my dr pepper and over eat for every meal.

I wish that my dd will stop coming to me for everything and go to her dad for once. Even when he is sitting doing nothing and Im busy he comes to me.

I wish dh would help me around the house. Ever since weve lived here he hasnt done a darn thing.

That there are some days where I cant stand my husband and wish we didnt get married, but then the thought of him being gone tears me apart.

luvmykids replied: Jennifer-

luvmykids replied: I Confess:

I've been having baby fever really bad lately and kicking myself for not savoring those years with my kids

I could do a better job on the house, I just get tired of doing it over and over and over

I don't want anything to do with our business anymore, it's too stressful, and although I know DH needs my support and appreciates me being involved, I wish everyone there thought I didn't know anything about anything, and quit assuming that because I'm SAHM I have the time to do things they don't feel like doing.

I wish DH would take his own clothes to the cleaners and run to the store when all I need is milk, and that if I go to the store he would at least put them to bed or give them a bath while I'm gone.

I wish these little things about DH didn't bother me so much

I worry that I'm not teaching my kids enough and they'll start preschool already behind

I hate that I do things (good and bad) that I said I'd never do as a wife/parent

NEWMOM05 replied: Time for more confessions frome me

I confess....

Recently I've wanted to repy to a lot of posts, but am too tired.

Will not cuss in public, but my Dh likes it when I talk dirty in bed.

get mad at dh for spending money we don't have, then ask him to take me out to dinner.

Have all sorts of books to read, but haven't. Then I keep wanting to get more.

One of my dh's aunts drives me nuts. They can say it's mental, but she just burns me.

sometimes will go for weeks without calling my friends, then will call them when I want to complain about something.

dislike putting laundry away, will do it, but will set it in little piles

use the dryer as my wrinkle releaser, iron, what's that!!

am secretly glad someone told me when nursing I can't clean the cat box. Now Dh has to do it.

I am sort of glad we're not moving for another year. I get to stay close to my parents.

I'm not scared of the dark, but what's in the dark.

used to watch scary movies for the thrill, but now they leave me with a bad feeling.

ate a whole box of mints by myself

have leftovers from before our vacation, but haven't cleaned them out.

I don't have even close of the sex drive I had before I was pregnant.

Wish I would get more energy. I am super exhausted all the time

haven't followed up on my dr's referral because I don't want to have anymore tests or be told bad news

miss having Kathryn next to us in our room. 3 nights in her crib.

MyBrownEyedBoy replied: I confess

It has been so long since I've been intimate with my husband that I don't really know if I want to anymore.

I am terrified to admit failure.

I hate hearing I told you so.

I love 80s music.

I am relieved that Aaron likes Hamburger Helper and would gladly eat it 7 days a week because I am so tired after work sometimes.

I hate hamburgher helper.

My job sometimes make me judgemental. Of people who drink and drive, and of people who can be so stupid sometimes. (You mean those belly pains are labor, but I'm not pregnant. My period just stopped about 9 months ago. I thought it did that every now and then.) Grrr, just own up to it. (I haven't been drinking for at least 3 days. (Okay, then why is your blood alcohol 0.2?)

punkeemunkee'smom replied:

Kelly being irritated by stupidity is not being judgemental!

I confess round #2....

A good friend of mine has made some comments lately that have gotten under my skin and I have said very nasty things about her to Bill...

I have been cheating on my diet since yesterday.... I will stop now!

Today my house is a wreck and I am sitting here-NOT cleaning-and I don't think I am going to start cleaning anytime soon!

I miss Bill-He works so hard and gets NO THANKS at work-and I wish he could find something else and be home more....

I have been in a pretty poor mood all week! I think I should just take a nap

AlexsPajamaMama replied: Wow reading these confessions makes me not feel soo bad about the way I feel about myself and the things that I do!!
We are all human!! Ok! My First Conffesion!!

I confess...

I don't like my belly either, and know that if I just watch what I eat I could lose weight, but thats just not much fun!

I also give in to DS way more than I should, don't always put him in time out when he probably needs to.

And my biggest conffesion...

I let DS watch more tv than he should probably be watching....how I justify it is that they are shows he has learned sooo much from and he has gotten quite the imagination from them!! (Dora and Diego)

Okay! Thanks for listening!! I do feel better!!
More to come later!

AlexsPajamaMama replied:
I sooo agree with you on this!!

AlexsPajamaMama replied: I confess

I enjoy having the bed to myself all week while DH works third shift....and when the weekend comes around and we have to share the bed I can never get comfortable and look forward to Sunday night when he goes back to work!!

ashtonsmama replied: I don't know if I'll be able to handle having 2 kids under the age of 1! I'm literally scared to death! I feel like I'm just getting used to having one baby, and now I'm going to have two?!? I just don't feel like I'm strong enough and going to be able to do it all...

And my other confession...maybe some others have dealt with this...but I've struggled with anorexia since I was about 13. I've gone through therapy and all that, but I still struggle with it all the time. I feel like breastfeeding and being pregnant is all that's keeping me from not eating some times. My DH knows about it and he's really supportive and wants to help, but sometimes still I feel like I'm beyond anyone's help. I just feel like I'll never be able to conquer my eating disorder. I know that's alot, but there it is.

I have alot more I could confess, but those are the two big things in my life right now.

NEWMOM05 replied:
Oh sweetie, I can already tell from your posts what a great mom you are to Ashton. You are going to be a great mom second time around. Your kids will possibly be good friends, being so close in age.

As for the other thing, personally I don't have experience with this, but have many friends that have. The board will be your support too. Whenever you need a listening ear we're here. Hey that rhymes.

NEWMOM05 replied:

Cece00 replied: Man I loved reading this thread...it really helped me feel more "normal" about stuff...good to see other ppl feel the way I do!

My turn..I confess:

-I am sick of being a SAHM. I've done it off and on since my oldest was born in 2001. I have to do it for at least 1.5 more years and sometimes I wonder if I will make it without going crazy. I want to be around adults & not spend ALL of my time with my children. I would also like some more time ALONE.

-I feel like I'm a bad person b/c I dont LOVE being @ home with my kids. I dont know why I feel that way b/c my mom was never a SAHM and I think she was one of the best moms EVER.

-I am also scared to go to work. I am not sure 100% what I want to go and do, I have a lot of options open to me. I am super scared to suck at my job and feel like a failure.

-I feel so fat and gross sometimes. I lost 30 lbs in 2004 & then got married and kept the weight off, then got preg in Jan 2005 and then got preg 2 months after our daughter was born. I am carrying about 30-40 lbs more than I want to carry right now, but I am pregnant and there isnt anything I can do about it. I worry once I have the baby I will be too lazy to get the weight off.

-I am lazy and I hate cleaning the house. I just do it b/c I dont want my husband to wonder why I'm such a lazy housewife. I do a good job, dont get me wrong (I dont like things to be dirty), but I still hate it.

-I worry my husband wont find me attractive. I know he does, but I just feel so down on MYSELF that I worry. He is constantly telling me I am beautiful, that my weight is perfect right now, he loves me, finds me incredibly attractive. I totally believe him but I guess I worry one day he will wake up and be like "Ew." I dont know WHY I worry b/c he always says "Do you love me as much b/c I've put on weight?" (he probably gained like 30 lbs when I was pregnant in 2005) and of course I do. I still find him incredibly attractive...but I worry he will think I'm gross. I guess that makes me really insecure.

-I am not as patient with my children as I would like to be. I get really angry with myself b/c I am not. I know this is b/c I am home with them constantly and so its easier to get to "the end of the rope" and I try hard to be as patient as I always wanted to be, but its hard. I feel like sometimes I yell a little too much.

- I worry my sons will want to live with their father when they are older, and I just could not deal with not seeing them every day. I worry he (their dad) will take me to court, and win, not b/c I am an unfit parent, but he will win rather b/c my kids will be able to tell the judge they would prefer to live with their dad. It would also break my heart if they would prefer to live with him over me. It would also make me angry b/c I have done EVERYTHING for my kids and given up a lot for my kids, am always the one to make the sacrifices, spend all $$ to do what is best for them (get them what they need, college savings, activities, etc), and not their dad. He loves them, but he does what he wants about 95% of the time, has plenty of $$$ to do what he wants, etc etc etc but I worry that my kids will not realize that when they are teenagers & just want to go live in the house where they can get away with as much as possible.

-I worry my kids will be screwed up in life or not successful and happy & I will feel like it is my fault. I worry about almost every decision I make about them & how it will affect their future.

-I am not as excited about being pregnant as I should be. I am happy to have another baby, but we didnt want another baby for about 2-3 years and instead this baby will be here in about 5.5 months.

-I worry something will be wrong with this baby b/c I am not excited as I should be...like some sort of "punishment".

-I am REALLY afraid of the dark and of being alone @ night. If I come home when its dark, I will lock the kids in the car, go inside, get a knife and search EVERY INCH of my house with my cell in my hand with 911 pressed (but not dialed, obviously) and only when its clear will I go & get my children. I have an irrational fear that someone will break into my house, hide, and try to kill me & my children and this is the only way I feel "safe" if my DH isnt home @ night.

- I also sleep with the lights & TV on when he isnt home & I cant just go to sleep, I basically have to lay awake until I get so tired that I pass out, and its usually very late & then my kids get up early. So I hate when DH is out of town.

-I am terrified that my DH will die. He had cancer when he was 19 (Hodgkin's Disease) and was treated & has been in remission for like 4-5 years. His rate of getting this particular cancer isnt very high, but his rate of secondary cancer is semi-high, esp where he received radiation. We always talk about getting old together & what we will do when the kids are out of the house, etc, but in my head I always worry that he will die in a few years, or even in 10 years. I would be incredibly lost without him and wonder how I will cope if he dies, leaving me with 4 children. I dont know how I would function without him, because he has been my friend for almost 14 years, and I have loved him since I was about 19 yrs old (he's been in love with me for like....10 years) , and we finally just got married in 2004 after he told me he had been in love with me for so long. He always jokes that I will just go & get married again but I he is everything to me and I just honestly DO NOT know how I would even be able to breathe without him. I am terrified that I will have to watch the most important person in my life die a slow and painful death, and how I will ever be able to get over that.

-I am scared of dying before my older two sons turn 18. I know if I died when my younger 2 children were still minors, my husband would do a good job with them but I worry about what would happen to my boys if I died b/c they would most likely have to go live with their dad & I dont think they would have the best shot in life if that happened. I also worry their dad would try to keep them away from my husband, their 2 siblings, and my parents.

-I love when my kids all go somewhere for a night or two (like with my parents) and I get time alone with my hubby. I esp love when we go out drinking & get super drunk. It reminds me how fun it was to be a teenager. Sometimes I wish I could get a babysitter for my kids for a whole week & I could party it up.

- I worry DH & I wont have a lot of sex as we get older. We have less now than we did when we first got together, but I understand thats normal (b/c we were having sex just about every day), plus we still have pretty frequent sex, and sometimes we have TONS of sex. But I hear ppl say they have sex like once a month or every 3-4 months and I am SO SCARED that for some reason we'll be those ppl b/c I just generally like sex & want to keep having a lot of it and I think it would make me feel bad about MYSELF if DH didnt want to have sex regularly & I wouldnt want him to feel that way if I didnt want to have sex regularly.


Whew. Sorry for the novel, but I really feel better getting this off my chest. Thanks, guys.

NEWMOM05 replied: I confess...


I read the post about Chocolate Pops and now I am craving Chocolate.

I have housework to do, but don't feel like doind it.

I didn't here Kathryn until she had been crying for a few minutes.

I feel like such a bad mom a lot.

I forget the littlest and the biggest things sometimes.

My Dh and I still act like Newly weds even after 2 years. We are so flirtatious and goofy. Lovey dovey acting.

I really don't like cooking.

Bee_Kay replied: I confess-

That sometimes I get the WORST cravings for "just one puff" of a cigarette. The cravings only last for a minute but they are pretty intense, but then, they leave just as fast as they come.

Crystalina replied:
Ditto on the "just one puff" thing ... and I haven't smoked since Aug. 2000! I don't think the cravings will ever go away.

USMCwife replied: I confess...

That I am more insecure about myself now then I have ever been before. I dont like feeling like this, I am not used to it. I gaind alot more weight w/ my son, Garrett (6 months old) then I did w/my daughter,Eden ( 6 years old). I have always been very happy w/ myself and my looks and now I just dont feel pretty anymore. I am going to the gym, but I am not losing my weight as fast as I did after I had Eden.

I feel bad because sometimes I am not as patient as I would like to be w/ my daughter.

I also enjoy a night alone w/ my husband, I think every couple needs a night to themselves.

I confess that when my sister n law called and told me that she was pregnant again, I wasnt as happy for her as I should have been. I know it sounds bad, well is bad, but I wanted my son to be the baby for awhile. They have 2 girls, Garrett is the only boy (grandson) they want a little boy, but deep down inside I want them to have a girl. (This is the confession that I feel the guiltiest about.) I cant even believe that I confessed it... but I do feel better getting it off of my chest,

MyBrownEyedBoy replied:
I confess that I felt much the same way when my sister got pregnant. And I was incredibly relieved when she found out that her's was a girl. I felt and still feel a bit guilty about that.

NEWMOM05 replied: Time for more confessing from me

I confess...

Told Dh I would limit my time on Pc, but haven't really.

Feel like I have to try to post to everyone.

Love to get pms, It makes me feel loved.

Have been avoiding calling on my Dr's referrals.

I don't want to talk on the phone to my friends as much anymore

Crave chocolate daily.

I am really worried about our finances.

Love to give Kathryn kisses.

Forget peoples names really easily

Haven't down the dishes in two days

That's enough for now. My daily destressing

MM'sMama replied: Ok (sigh) my turn....

I had a broke down a cried today over stress.

I was so dang happy to get a break from the kids tonight. (my mom took them)

I ate KFC and cookies today ruin my diet.

I feel all alone latly.

Rocked out to my music tonight I mean really rocked out because I was home alone.

I think I might be PG again but have not said a word to DH.

Ok I think thats it

BAC'sMom replied: I confess….

I need a haircut BAD.

Having 2 children playing baseball this year, is running me ragged.

Everyone around me thinks I am a rock, that I can handle anything. But I sometimes break down from all the pressure and cry when I am alone.

My DH is at the top of my sh*t list these days.

Not looking forward to 4-17-06.

JP&KJMOM replied:



I also confess....

I don't spend as much time as I think I should with my kids.
I don't keep up my house cleaning like I use to.
I spend to much money on junk food.

I think my list is endless.

luvmykids replied: I confess ....

I'm dreading 4-17-06 as much as you guys ... who picked that date anyway?

I have been really lazy lately with cooking, cleaning, laundry, etc and am so mad at myself for it, but not enough to get off my arse and pull my head out.

As proud as I am of DH for what he's trying to achieve for our family, sometimes I don't support him like I should because I know it will bring changes I don't want. (Like moving to the middle of the desert without my mom)

Bee_Kay replied: Okay....

I confess.... that I failed at quitting smoking again

I am SO sorry, I feel terrible. I took my ticker off my signature and I am really bummed out. You were all so supportive of me and I appreciated that so much. I don't know what the heck I was thinking when I did it.... maybe I wasn't thinking. But, I'll quit again very soon. I can feel the bad side effects of smoking and I am so ashamed of myself.

It was so hard for me to tell you all this, and I am so sorry

Brias3 replied:
Couldn't have said it better myself. This past month or two, I've been awful. I need to put a stop to it but it seems like the more days that pass, the busier we get!

Bee_Kay replied: My sister ran into my SD and her BF at the store. My SD told her that she isn't ignoring me, that's it's all my fault! OMG! I have told all you ladies how I have tried and tried with her and she takes no responsibility.

Also, my sister "reminded" my SD that it was my birthday today and that she should, at least, give me a quick phonecall. My SD response? "I'm too busy".

I am so..... ugh, I don't even know what I am. This is so riduculous that sometimes I just see red.

All these years of doing EVERYTHING for her when so many people walked out of her life or walked all over her. All those years of doing the best I could to raise her as my own. I just feel it was for nothing.

So, my confession is that there are some days that I could really care less that I hear from her or see her at all.

luvmykids replied: BARB! You don't owe us any apologies! They say to keep quitting because it takes 7-10 times to succeed! Try again with us on the 17th ... or don't but we don't think any less of you!!!

luvmykids replied:
And the busier we get, the worse it gets, and the harder it gets to get un-overwhelmed, and harder to even put a dent in it and feel like I've made any progress, and then I just think oh well we're probably moving soon, I'll deal with it then!

Celestrina replied: I have a bad habit of overeating, especially fatty fried food. It doesn't help that I work in a mall.

I am an absolute slob.

I suffer from depression but haven't seen a therapist in a very long time.

I let Ben watch more tv than I probably should. There are just some shows he adores.

CAMSMOM1 replied: Ok, I need this post right now. I'm so on EDGE right now I just want to scream, cry all at the same time.

The kids at work today were talking behind my back, and said I was a FAT HIPPO, and that I have a saggy stomach, that I eat to much, and I've gained a lot of weight this year! Thanks a lot kids....for everything I do for you, this is what I GET!!! WTH...they hurt me to the core!!!! Nevermind the fact that am at an all time LOW with my self esteem. I am the biggest I have ever been, I weigh 220 pounds, and I have the worst looking stomach you'll ever see, and I'm not exaggerating. It hangs so bad it looks like I've had 10 kids! I don't want to have sex because I can't even stand to look at myself naked, so why would DH want to?? I want to get prg again, but I can't until I lose the weight.

I think I'm having a relapse of depression again, and I need to get on some meds. I am to stubborn to admit that I need medication, and I think I can handle this on my own. I sabatoge myself all the time, and treat my body like crap! I eat the entire time I'm at work, and all the wrong kinds of foods. And then I don't eat dinner.

My house is a diaster, and DH is POed at me. He says we live like slobs, and he wants to break my computer. He sounds like a broken record!

3 of my close friends have called me this week, and I haven't returned any of their calls. I've been such a bad friend!

Even though I hear Cam waking up, I don't rush in to get him. I come on the computer for a little while, and then get him up. He's not crying or anything, he's just playing in his crib. But I still feel like a horrible Mother for not getting him up right away.

I'm signing Cam up for daycare on Saturday, and I'm not thrilled about it. I feel really scared putting him in the hands of people I don't know from Adam! I'm so scared that they'll mistreat him or something. So I've been procrastinating at signing him up, cause I don't want to.

Sorry for the novel, as you can tell, I'm in a lovely mood!

widgetX12 replied: awe. Daycare is great if you got some great teachers. Isaac loves it there. Dont feel bad. The kids love playing together. I think its great for them.


My confessions:

I let Isaac watch Power Rangers, even though i think its probaly too much violence.

I also let him watch too much tv. But lately Ive tried to limit it more.


I spend too much time on the computer.

Im scared to death Im not gonna find a good job.

Renee'smom replied: I confess:

* Sometimes I lost my patience w/my little Renee

* I'm a kind of scare to hit the 40's (I'm 39)

* I got polio and I'm scare that my legs get weaker and can't fill out my baby needs (she's just 2yr 4months)