I don't know what to think... - just needed to get it off my chest

Brias3 wrote: I know I should just go into the doc for a blood test, but I feel the need to vent and get opinions here first

So I think I may be pregnant and I've been driving myself absolutely bonkers for the past week. I'm almost two weeks late (it'll be 2 exactly on Wednesday) and I have a couple of tell-tale signs that I've had each time I've been pregnant before (super tired and horrible backache, with slight nausea) and just overall a feeling I "recognize", KWIM? However, I've taken four, yes, four home tests and every single one has been negative. I took one last week on Monday, one Tuesday, one yesterday and one this morning. The negative line has been really faint on two of them, but there's definitely NO trace of a second line, so I completely can't remember if the faintness makes a difference?? The thing that worries me though is that I just switched BC so could have been unprotected during that "window".

I guess I just need some moral support and a shove to go into the doc just to set my mind at ease! I feel bad saying this, but I just really do not know what I'd do with another. I mean, our baby days are over, or so I thought- Mase is going to be 5 next week! My mind's just kind of going in a million different directions, and I haven't told Bruce yet which is HORRIBLE- we never keep things from each other. He's been in Europe for the past few weeks (which mind you, because of this trip there is literally only ONE time this could have possibly happened and I could tell you down to the day and time ) and is in the middle of a HUGE show right now, so I feel like I want to have a for sure answer before I tell him, I'm just too chicken to go in! I'm just rambling I know, but I guess I just needed to vent out a little so thanks for whoever made it this far. It's just been one of those weeks and I'm feeling overwhelmed by alot right now

A&A'smommy replied: I know scary but it could be a great thing too right!!! I had a friend find out this morning that she is 5 weeks pregnant she took 4 test last week and all of them were negative. I have another friend that didn't find out until she was 12 weeks and took a pregnancy test at least once a week. So yeah you need to go get a blood test it could also be stress too I hope you get the result you want if not just remember everything happens for a reason and know that we are all here for you!!

HuskerMom replied:

CantWait replied: The switch in BC can be the reason behind the delay of your period, and then the added stress on top of that. It doesn't matter how faint the negative line, but it could be too early maybe. Go in and get a blood test, put your mind at ease. I hope you get the results you're looking for.

MommyToAshley replied: Don't feel bad for how you feel. We have pretty much come to the conclusion that we are done too. When I was late, I had mixed feelings as well. When I found out I wasn't PG, I was a tiny bit disappointed but mostly relieved.

Go to the doc, and find out for sure. Either way, you will feel much better having a definite answer. When does your DH get home?

lisar replied: I say go to the dr and get a blood test done. Also the stress your under right now could be the reason of your missed period or the bc pill change.

Brias3 replied: Thanks so much for all the kind messages- it sure did cheer me up to see that I have such great people to talk to here

Well, I went into the doctor yesterday morning and they did a blood test. Turns out I am pregnant, right about six weeks he thinks, but they did a quantitative test as well and he's concerned because my levels are so low for the timeline I gave him. I called Bruce right away and told him, and he's thrilled more than anything, which I can't exactly say for myself , but now this morning I noticed some spotting and its continued all day today Speak of the devil, huh? Right after I drive myself nutty over this for the past almost 2 weeks . I'm headed back into the obgyn after I drop the kids at school in the morning, so we'll see what's going on....I'm just kind of a ball of emotions over this right now. I guess the best I can do at this point is just pray that things work out how they're meant to be

Bruce comes home Friday so that's a relief at least.

A&A'smommy replied:
I will be thnking about you sweetie please let us know whats going on!!

luvmykids replied: Oh gosh, wow, I can imagine the suprise behind this but congrats anyway! I'm glad Bruce will be home soon, please KUP!!!

jacobsmama replied: You are right, things will work out the way they are suppose too. Did they tell you what the number was for the qualitative result??? the 2nd test result will show you if it is going up appropriately or not. It should double ever 48 hours.

I will be praying for you that things work out the way they are meant too. hang in there.

moped replied:

Please let us know!

MoonMama replied:

mckayleesmom replied: Keep us updated girly.

My sister took 12 pregnancy tests and they all came out negative and she was indeed pregnant.

MommyToAshley replied: Wow, I am sure a positive result was a surprise for you and Bruce. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers... Let us know what the doc says.

Calimama replied: We're here to listen.

A&A'smommy replied: any news?

moped replied:
Anything?

HuskerMom replied:

MommyToAshley replied: Just wanted to give you another cyber hug and let you know we are still thinking about you.

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My2Beauties replied: please KUP with any updates.

Brias3 replied: Thanks for all the thoughts, you guys! I really appreciate it. Sorry I didn't update yesterday, we had a crazy schedule and Bruce didn't get home till late this morning.

Anyhow, I went in and things seem to be ok for the most part. My hcg count went up to just under 12,000 from about 8,500 so that's good- a slower increase, but nothing my doc's too concerned about quite yet. Spotting seems to have stopped as well, so that could be an isolated instance. I just had a bit yesterday, but seem fine today. I'm going to go in on Monday too just to see how things are progressing count wise.

Bruce is thrilled about this whole thing, so I'm trying to have a better attitude about it, its just really surprising and overwhelming right now!

Again, thanks for the support- having you guys to "talk" to was great during this time. We're not telling anyone at this point quite yet- just until we're sure all's ok. I had a rougher go of it with Mason and am older now too, so we just want to be cautious before we spread the news to friends, etc.

Edited to add: My doc said I'm still within the normal range for the predicted count from 6 weeks of LMP, but 8-12,000 still seems super low to me??? I have no memory recall on the others- its funny how much you forget in five years.

luvmykids replied: I have no idea anymore on what counts should be, it seems it all left my brain as soon as the kids arrived But I'm very glad things are ok, and super happy to hear that Bruce is so excited

A&A'smommy replied: I'm glad everything is ok.. I just looked up counts for you http://www.americanpregnancy.org/duringpre.../hcglevels.html just in case you wanted to know. I hope you start to feel better about things!!! I can understand having a hard time with it I would feel the same especially right now I'm always here to listen if you need to talk!!

moped replied: Well I am happy for you and I KNOW you will be once you wrap your head around it all

HuskerMom replied: I'm glad everything's ok! The first few months were nerve racking to me. Try to relax!