In an all-time low.

mummy2girls wrote: I woke up thismorning and didn't want to get out of bed. I just layed there for 45 minutes listening to jenna snore on the monitor! and seeing the brrrrrrrrrrrr weather outside didnt help! Every little thing is upseting me..things that usually dont. I am reading the posts and am very happy for the newly pregnant moms, and for everyone that is in good spirits. Im posting to as much posts i can before i cant handle it anymore. Im looking at the christmas decorations with tears welling up in my eyes..tears of sadness and tears of happiness for jenna. I am starting to decorate my place because i want jenna to have a special day. She is in awe with the small table tree i have. the lights i think is what is attracting her. I put the presents i got jenna by the tree. excited for the morning she can unwrap them. I am feeling like i just want to crawl back into bed and hibernate for the winter! I have no idea what is making me feel so low. Maby because it is nearing Christmas.. i dont know. Sorry if ive depressed any of you... I am going to take a few days to myself and just be me and my sweet Jenna. spend time with her and just cherish everything i guess. I will be MIA for while and hopefully taking quiet time with Jenna will help me... I am getting holidays soon also so that will help. Ill miss you all....HUGGS

jen replied: Sweetie just take it one day at a time and find peace and happiness in all the little things. The weather outside doesn't help the mood, maybe hang something on your windows to soften things and get a tropical candle, that helps me! Let Jenna be your therapy and we are here for you when you need to chat

mckayleesmom replied: Hope you feel better soon and hurry back to us. Maybe you can start working on a new tradition with Jenna in Honor of Jordan like we were talking about before.

momtobe replied: In honor of Jordan...did you lose a little baby or an older child.... I am so sorry for your loss. i work with very sick babies in the hospitals... I havent lost a baby / child myself but see the pain almost every day where i work. If you need to talk please dont hesitate...

aspenblue1 replied: I hope you feel better soon. It might be the weather.

amynicole21 replied: I feel this way nearly every winter. For me, I think it has to do with the change of light - it's called Seasonal Affective Disorder (or something like that). What really helps is turning on a lot of lights, opening all of the curtains and really trying to brighten up your surroundings as much as possible.

I hope this funk passes quickly and that you are able to enjoy Jenna's Christmas, and your own!

DansMom replied: I'm sorry you're feeling so down right now. I hope that focusing on Jenna's experience and spending time with her will help get you through the holiday. We'll miss you---don't stay away too long!

kimberley replied: sorry ur feeling so down sweetie. the holidays can get difficult. just take it one day at a time and it will get easier. Jordan will forever be in your heart and would want you and Jenna to be happy. i hope you feel better soon. we will miss you and be thinking about you.

Kaitlin'smom replied: sorry your so down, I know the winter weather can bring me down. I hope Jenna can bring back your happness. Will miss you around hope you can pop in when you feel up to it. Take care!

A&A'smommy replied: im so sorry you are feeling down!!!! I hope these next couple of days help brighten you up!! ((((BIG BIG HUGS))))

Kirstenmumof3 replied: I'm so sorry you are so sad! I know a lot of people (including myself) that are going through the Holiday Blues. Try to enjoy it and spend as much time with Jenna as you can! Play with her, take her out in the snow (if you have snow), look at the world through her eyes and maybe it will make you feel better! Sending lots of HUGS your way and I hope you feel better soon!

MommyToAshley replied: I just wanna reach out and give you a great big hug. I am sorry you are feeling so down. I know that you have been missing Jordan and that Holidays are tough. I just wish I knew what to say to make you feel better. You are such a kind and giving person, I wish I could return some of that kindness. I think you are wise to take some extra time with Jenna... that would brighten anyone's day. But, please don't stay away too long because you will be dearly missed.

Maddie&EthansMom replied: I am so sorry you are feeling so down. I really think it is the time of year. It always brings me down, too. I am a little better since Maddie has expressed so much interest in the decorating and to see her little face light up really helps get me through. I haven't been on a lot lately, either. Mainly b/c I'm just not feeling up to it. I hope this passes for you. Please know we all love you and are here for you whenever you need to talk. I know you miss Jordan...take your time to grieve this holiday season, but please remember that Jenna deserves and needs some wonderful memories. You will be fine. I am thinking about you! (((HUGS)))