It really hit home for me yesterday - I feel horrible

My2Beauties wrote: First of all, lately DH has been working a LOT, I mean the kids haven't seen him since Sunday so I made him stay home with them a couple hours this morning before taking them to daycare, because he'll probably get called back in this afternoon. He got home late last night. So this is really taking a toll on me, I feel like a single parent and I get really frustrated with the kids lately because I hurt my back last weekend and I can't really lift anything but it's me by myself and I have a 14 month old...yeah right, no lifting my butt, so it's making me extremely frustrated and moody. Not to mention AF is in town, my stomach is bloated and I'm all crampy (which I never get this way usually) and I just feel blah. These pain meds have me in la la land all the time and I'm just not in a good mood. Regretfully I seem to (at least this past week) be yelling at the kids a lot and I feel so bad for it.

Well I picked the kids up from daycare yesterday and the DCP always sends home the pictures or drawings or crafts that the kids did that day. I have a drawer full of Hanna's drawings and such. Well they did an exercise where they had fill in the blanks...like My name is _____, something that makes me happy is ______, my favorite food is_____ etc. Well one was something that makes me sad is _______. Hanna had when my mommy goes to work. I hate that feeling. I have no option than to work, financially we CANNOT afford for me not to work. We would lose our home, a lot of times I bring home more than DH does so we need my job. His job has the awesome benefits and pension plans so we really can't afford for him to not work either. So that hurt. Then on top of that I've been thinking about how crappy I've acted lately, I've acted like the 4 year old in many situations that I felt horrible. I need my spirits lifted guys!!! My mom isn't keeping the kids this weekend so I'm thinking I wanna take Hanna to a movie and maybe shopping or something else she really likes (yes she loves shopping... that's my girl)!

Kaitlin'smom replied: I know the feeling. Kaitlin liked Kung Fo Panda and is hoping to go see Wall-E this weekend.

maybe we need to try and plan that get together again

My2Beauties replied:
Di that would be awesome. Seriously, I can't this weekend or next but this time I promise any other weekend after that. I have money put back now and Brian is getting a paycheck this time LOL! Last time I remember he was in railroad school and didn't get paid for 9 weeks rough time! OK let's plan it. I know Dee Dee is in the area too.

gr33n3y3z replied:
EVERYONE has days and weeks like that also anyone who says they dont lets just say they need to look out side the box
The more important thing is you caught yourself and your changing it

punkeemunkee'smom replied: Don't beat yourself up! I know how stressed you can get when DH is gone alot! It is hard especially when you are hurt! I don't have any advice to offer just

Kaitlin'smom replied:
This month is busy for me, but I can in Aug, just not the fist saturday, I believe Kaitlin will be in the Ohio State Parade. Let me know a date, the 9th or the 16th or 23rd is good for me. do we just want to me at the aquarium? then we can see who else wants to met up

luvmykids replied: I'm sorry you're so down I understand the "single mom" feeling .... When DH is gone I'm not my best as a mom because I get overwhelmed and I could guilt myself into the next century, but I try to take a deep breath and try to do better. Hang in there, all moms feel bad more than most of us probably need to

My2Beauties replied:
ok we'll PM and talk about it

grapfruit replied:
If you guys are going to the Newport Aquarium I totally want in on that!

I'll bring my nieces!

lisar replied: I know the feeling all to well. DH is working a second job he is off at night on Mondays and Wednesdays only cause I go to school those nights. So the only time I see him is on the weekends. But when he isnt there and I am then I feel like a single parent. Its hard. And I have to work full time or we would loose everything we have worked so hard for.

My2Beauties replied:
Yes that is where we are going

Danalana replied: I just wanted to add that kids are resilient. One of the most wonderful things about them is that they are very forgiving...no grudge-holding. I agree with what Lisa said--everybody has days/weeks like that but, as long as you recognize it and change, it won't "leave a mark" on them. Don't beat yourself up You are a good mother!