Just put a knife through my heart

My2Beauties wrote: So as everyone knows Dad took Hanna for the week with him to Alabama. Last night around 9:30 dad calls and says Hanna wants to talk to you. He said she was in a really good mood and she said call my mommy. So he gives her the phone and I start saying Hi baby and I love you and she just is really quiet, so I could hear dad saying Are you gonna talk Hanna and about that time she just starts bawling uncontrollably and she says I want to come home mommy. OK that was all it took - I swear I have never in my life felt so helpless or awful - I was crying so hard. Here it is, 9:30 at night, she is 5 hours away and I have an 8:00 meeting at work this morning, I can't possibly call in to come get her and if I left and came right back I wouldn't have gotten home until nearly 5:00 in the morning, probably later than that. I was alreayd drained. But I was a hairpin close to getting out my keys, gassing up and going down there. Hanna is normally so outgoing and so ready to go and do stuff and stay the night with her mamaws and papaws that this just threw me for a loop. Dad got back on the phone and said LeaAnn she is really tired, she is yawning and she hasn't had but a 20 minute nap today, he said I promise you she is fine and she didn't do this until you got on the phone. I had the most terrible nights sleep last night because I kept on thinking about this. I feel awful because she was crying and yet I felt like it would be mean to cut dad's time with her short because he hardly ever gets to spend any time with her. He just called me about 10 minutes ago and they were in the pool, he had the cordless out there and she was having a ball, she was laughing and saying I'm swimming mommy I'm swimming and she was having so much fun. So I know she is having a good time and stuff but at night, dad says she just starts to miss us. I guess because I tuck her in and give her lots of kisses and she always talks about how much she loves her princess bed that she just gets a little home sick I was honestly even thinking about leaving work early today after the meeting to go and get her but Brian said that I need to let dad have his time with her. I feel so terrible for not leaving right then and there and racing down to Alabama. I can't take her doing that to me again, the next time it happens I swear I'm I'm on my way down there! That was heartbreaking! I think at that moment, I realized the true meaning of being a mom and how much love you have for your children!

MommyToAshley replied: Ok, you have me crying with you.

She probably does miss you, but she is also having a great time. Try not to dwell on her crying for a few minutes and think of her playing and laughing in the pool ... it's a good experience for her to spend time with her pawpaw. Hang in there Mom.

1lilpeanut2love replied: Awwwh!!

mckayleesmom replied: Awww.....poor Hanna Banana.....She was probably just tired.....

Maddie&EthansMom replied: That's so hard. Nighttime is always the hardest. I have no doubts that she is having a blast during the day. Hang in there...she will be home before you know it.

luvmykids replied: Kylie always cries for me at night when she's with gparents but I know she's well loved and having a ball, there just isn't anything quite like mommy tucking them in It can be heartbreaking but also kind of reminds me of not only how special they are to me but how special I am to them, it's a sweet feeling

Hope the rest of her visit flys by for both of you

kimberley replied: aww that made me teary too! being a mom can be heartbreaking at times. i am sure she was just tired and is having a blast but i know this must be so hard for you hang in there. she will be home soon.

AlexsPajamaMama replied: Awwww

jcc64 replied: Ok, you just need a little pep talk, LeaAnn. She's FINE, trust me, she was tired and cranky, and all kids do that when they're away from home and a little out of sorts. It's important for her to learn how to separate from you, particularly when she's spending critical time building memories with extended family. Your dad can handle it, she can handle it- now you have to handle it. It's all normal, and she's probably having the time of her life, and so is your dad. Take advantage of the freedom, girl.

Kirstenmumof3 replied: I know how you feel! I had many conversations with Emily when Spencer and I were in Toronto. She was just begging me to come home. I had to stop calling them from Spencers room, it was just too much. I'm sure she is fine visiting her grandparents. She will love you all the more when she gets home!

Nina J replied: That must have been so heartbreaking, I'm sorry.

I wouldn't worry to much. Kids are like the, especially at nighttime. I was that was as a kid, if I was away from home. When I was tired and it was night, I felt really homesick, but as soon as morning came, I was fine.

7thHeaven replied: Awwww, poor baby, sounds like she really misses you, especially at bed time. I know it's hard hun A week will fly by and soon she'll be back home with mama!