Karen

mckayleesmom wrote: How are you doing sweetie....did your husband get home? Im worried about you....hope you are doing ok.

coasterqueen replied: Thanks for asking. And thankyou to EVERYONE here. You are all so great. I finally did get a hold of my DH (later later this afternoon ) and he came home and gave me some time to myself.

I found out more information that has me very emotional and I just don't know how to handle it at this point. There is a police investigation now and they are requiring an autopsy before we can lay her to rest. Her body has been transported to our town for what reason I don't know. I would have figured they could do the autopsy in her town, so that part has me freaked out. They won't let anyone in the house til the investigation is over with. I'm so freaked out here. My uncle (not her husband, but her brother) called and said it was a suicide. But the police are saying it doesn't appear that she harmed herself. So we don't know if that means she died of health reasons (which are unknown to us) or if my uncle (her husband) had something to do with it.

Along with all this I found out that my uncle was having an affair and my aunt knew about it. She had quit her job to go on the road with my uncle (just recently), he's a trucker. I guess maybe she thought that would bring them closer together, I don't know.

I just don't know what to think. My aunt and uncle are extremely religious people and so loving. I just can't see her taking her own life and I can't see my uncle beng a part of her death.

Since they won't have the autopsy done til probably Monday it won't be mid of next week before we can say goodbye to her . My dad still isn't home from being up there (where she lives). My mom doesn't know much. My dad (myaunt is his sister) has 11 brothers and sisters to bring together before we can say goodbye to her as well.

I've had many deaths in my family and Dh's family before but this one is just too much for me. She was like a mom to me and to think of her taking her own life or my uncle being a part of it somehow is just too much for me to handle. I've thrown up several times today just thinking about it. I've had to be too strong for my girls and I'm just too tired to be. I'm afraid if I break down in front of Kylie that she's going to be affected somehow so I'm trying not to.

I just keep asking if she did take her own life...why? There's a whole lot going through my mind about religion because she was an extremely religious person. I know what goes on in the mind of someone who wants to commit suicide, because I was that person once. I did commit suicide, to live and tell about it.

I am trying to just remain calm about this til we know more but Monday seems so far away.

Again, thank you all so much for being there for me. It means the world to me. My husband is doing the best he can for me, but trying to take care of the girls at the same time makes it difficult to be the rock I need him to be.

mummy2girls replied: oh hun I am so sorry to hear this:( This must be so hard and i can only imagien the pain. Please keep us updates when you know more...

mammag replied: My continued prayers as this gets even worse for you. I hope it all gets figured out soon so you can all try to make peace with whatever has happened.

We are here for you!

A&A'smommy replied: (((((HUGS)))))) Karen I will keep you and your family in my prayers!!! I wish I had something comforting to say!!

redchief replied: Our prayers are with you and your family Karen. Godspeed.

Maddie&EthansMom replied: I will continue praying for you and your family, sweetie. I'm so sorry to hear this.

MyKidsMommy2005 replied: Karen, Hi Im new here you have read my intro. I didnt realize things were so rough for you right now. I will have you in prayer and thought. Keep us updated.

Connie

amymom replied: Karen, I will keep praying for you and your family. Please keep us updated on how you are doing.

Take care, Anne

gr33n3y3z replied:
hun you answered your own question that is why she has to have an autopsy done.
And most likely you will find out most of your questions when it comes back

I'm glad you got to talk to your hubby and he gave you time to yourself

Hugs to you and your family
and please keep us updated

kimberley replied: i am so sorry, Karen. let your girls and DH give you strength during this difficult time. if there is anything we can do for you, don't hesitate to ask. P&PT to you and your family.

amynicole21 replied: I'm so sorry, Karen. Keeping you in my thoughts.

Insanemomof3 replied: So sorry Karen. I will be thinking of you and your family.

iluvmysweetiepies replied: I"m so sorry sweetie!! You are in my thoughts and prayers.

punkeemunkee'smom replied: My heart aches for you and your family right now! Prayers and hugs to all of you!