Long Vent...sorry girls...don't have to read!

Proudmom2Hope wrote: I have no other place to vent and i really need to get this off my chest. Im sorry girls that you have to take the brunt of this all.

Last night my FIL passed away. HE died in his sleep(i am relieved he went away peacefully). My DH is very upset right now and I at this time is just being there for him and helping him get through this. I feel so bad right now and a very horrible wife! When my FIL was still alive and in the hospital me and my DH got into a fight. A huge fight that i can't believe we even got into. My fault as i am really stressed right now and BLEW up! I know that is no excuse! The fight was over something very stupid. My DH was upset over his dad and our Hope that he lost it on me. He got upset because he tripped over something that has been on the floor for the longest time. And he just flipped. Which really took me off guard because he has never reacted that way! No matter how stressed he was through his niece, my hospital stay while pregnant and his sister he never yelled or anything. I knew that he was just building everything up inside him so when he flipped on me i just let it slide but then he said something that i just felt was so rude and i blew up at him. So we just ended up sleeping in seperate rooms. Now that my FIL passed away i just hoped he would not be so built up with stress and anger but the death of his dad made matters worse. I feel so bad right now. I dont want to lose my DH. He is above all the best mnan i have ever met, he is so loving and caring. I want him back!

Hope is fighting her infection and is getting better. I feel so bad right now because my FIL was not able to see his granddaughter before he passed away. And i think that is one reason why my DH is reacting in the way he has. My MIL is so distraught right now. She isnt talking and looks as if she is in a dazed coma. She just stares into space like she has this glassy look in her eyes! I hope she will come around soon. Right now it is just fresh!

I love you all and wanted to just say that i appreciate everything that you have done for us throughout all my crap and dispair. I have thrown alot of depressing things out into this board that should be about our children and all the good things that are happening! I know we have our moments and our bad times but i feel as if i have brought way to much sadness into it. I need to take a break from everything. let you all have a break from my life that is horrible! I love you all and will be thinking of you all. I will let you all know when i bring Hope home though. But that may be a few weeks from now... I love ya all(((HUGS))))

Kirstenmumof3 replied: Awww Sharon I'm so sorry for your loss! My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family! Please try to remember that this wasn't your fault, sometimes couples just say things in the heat of anger! Hang in there, you are a very strong women!

A&A'smommy replied: Oh sweetie! Please don't feel like you need to take a break from us because you have shared all the sad things that you have gone through with us! We understand and that is what we are here for. I know I'm not the best person in the world to give advice but something I have learned from my parents and so many other couple who have been through hell (sorry for the word) and back, they NEVER go to be angry! If you have to raise your voice and bug the crap out of each other, or go into another room and pout or cry or scream whatever you do try NOT to go to bed angry. I'm SO sorry for all this you have gone through and I'm so sorry for yours and coreys loss. This is a horrible time for you guys! Another little piece of advice tell him everything you feel from the bottom of your heart, and ask for the same in return from him. TALK you guys need that right now it will help your morning (sp?) and help you guys get through this rough time with Hope! I hope I haven't overstepped the boundries by giving you advice, I'm just telling you what has gotten my parents and lots of other older couples has told me and my husband and it has actually helped us. (((((((BIG BIG HUGS))))))) You and your family is in my prayers! Keep us updated and come back when you feel like you need us, we will miss you but understand that you need your time. We love you guys VERY much!

edited to say: And Kirsten is right you are a VERY strong woman and I totally look up to you.

CantWait replied: I know you and your dh will make it through. You guys have had a really ROUGH few months, just about a year of horrible things happening. Hang in there and if you can, try and go out for a romantic dinner with dh or something. you guys really need it. Hugs to ya. I hope thing get better soon

booey2 replied: My condolences to you and your family. Take your time thru this difficult time in your life. My prayers go out to you and yours.

TLCDad replied: My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

chloe&tysmommy replied: I am so sorry for your loss

DansMom replied: What a difficult set of circumstances for you and DH to get through. It sounds like he's been trying to be the strong one for too long---nobody can carry that role indefinitely, and the death of a parent is truly devastating for most people. I'll be praying for your family---for healing, strength and renewal, and for better times to come.

amynicole21 replied: Sharon, I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. Please know that we are here for you no matter what!

jen replied: Sharon I'm so sorry. You and Corey are in my prayers. I hope everything gets worked out. You guys have been through so much together, I pray you can find strength and get through it. Don't feel like you burden us, we are here for you, don't stay away.

*Now that I have my baby, I can't imagine the strength you have to be away from her. You are such a strong woman, you will get through this. Hope is a very lucky little girl to have you both as her parents.

coasterqueen replied: Sharon, I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with your family.

Please know that we are here for you. We all need to vent, it's just our human nature. Know that you can come here and we are here for you.

Jamison'smama replied: So sorry you are going through all of this--sending big hugs--you know, fighting is okay---sometimes it takes the morning to see clearly again. It is more important that things be resolved and the argument ends in healthy way. Stress can do awful things to people but keeping it bottled up can cause physical illnesses so if you two had a blow out---it is okay--it happens to everyone. Sometimes we get the most angry at the person we feel the closest too--it is safe. You both have a lot to feel stressed about.

Bless both of you--what a hard few months this has been. Keep strong and vent whenever you need to. Sending lots of positive thoughts your way!

kimberley replied: i am so sorry for your loss and all that you and your family has had to endure these past months. i will be praying for you and Corey that you find the strength to get through this and know once your sweet baby girl gets home, things will get better. babies naturally bring pure joy to a home no matter what troubles existed there.

Mom2Boyz replied: I'm so sorry for the loss of your fil. And I hope you and dh can patch things up.
I'll be keeping your family in my thoughts and prayers.

jem0622 replied: I'm sorry about your FIL.

I'm not sure if your arguement with DH was that serious...but keep in mind you guys have had more stress put on you in a short period of time that no one could bear alone. I would strongly urge you to get counseling and seek support groups. You've both been through so much.

HUGS