Makes it worth it...

holley79 wrote: Since returning to work I have had such an issue with anxiety and some mild depression. (Hard for me to admit this. ) When I was on nights I would dread when DH would call because I knew Annika would be in the background screaming her head off and DH would have shear frustration in his voice. I thought it would get better going to days.

Everyday I picked up Annika CCP#1 would tell me how she does nothing but cry all day. Then on a Friday she told me it wasn't working out.

CCP#2 had Annika for 6 weeks and my days got better knowing Annika was happy. Then, of course, CCP#2 had to go back to school.

Then we are on to CCP#3. Thought all would go well since Annika knew her. WRONG. Two weeks and CCP#3 gives up on the kid.

I find CCP#4. Seems everything is going well with CCP#4. Annika does fuss when I leave her in the mornings ( ) but I can call 30 minutes later and she is talking to her toys. You would think I would be fine but I'm not. The entire time I am at work I am worrying till I pick Annika up in the afternoon and CCP#4 gives me the run down and says I will see you in the morning. I know I have someone to keep her the following day.

Well yesterday DH picked Annika up when he got home from work. I got to go straight home from work and was home by 10 after 5 instead of 6 or 630. It was great. When I walked in the door Dh and Annika were in the family room playing guitar and she was laughing. I walked around the corner and she held up her arms to me. I picked her up and gave her a huge hug and went to kiss her. Annika gave me my first slobbery wet baby kiss. She melted my heart.

This morning when I dropped Annika off I made like a "note to self" not to stress. If the CCP#4 does not work out I will find some place that does. I'm going to look forward to picking up my daughter instead of dreading what comes next. I can't change how people feel but I can change the way I feel. It has to work out and it will. Maybe not with this dayhome but there will be one out there suited for Annika.

Sorry this got long.

I love you guys. I don't know what I would do without this message board and all the friends I have made.

mom2my2cuties replied: Sounds like you have had a hard time with Dayhomes.....and I am sorry about that.


I am soooooooooo happy for you that you got your first "slobber" kiss.

mckayleesmom replied: Aww...how cute. I really hope this one works out. I can't imagine a daycare worker not giving a child time to adjust before quiting. I can't even imagine Annika being that much of a problem baby...she was sooo happy at McDonalds. Do the daycare providers have other kids there? Maybe she just wants someone to play with.

holley79 replied:
I know I loved it.

holley79 replied:
That's what I didn't understand. I wish they had given her time. At CCP#1 she had a holy terror of a two year old who was very jealous of Annika and tortured her. CCP#1's DH finally revealed this to me about a week after she quit.

CCP#2 did have other children there and she was fine for the 6 weeks she was there.

CCP#3 did not have other children and Annika wasn't thrilled.

CCP#4 has after school kids. Annika seems to be fine with it because CCP#4 interacts with her. CCP#4 also goes to infant/ toddler classes and seems to be in the "know how".

mummy2girls replied: what you rfeeling is understandeble. i had horror experiences with daycares with jenna for 3 years:( i wish you lived near me i would take her in an instant!

luvmykids replied:
What a great attitude I hope this breathes some new life into you knowing she is happy and looking forward to slobber baby kisses

CantWait replied: WOW Holley, when ya write it all out, (even though I imagined before) I can definetly see how fustrating it's been.

I'm glad things are working out so far with #4 and that you've decided to take a different perspective on things. You're a far bigger woman then myself that's for sure.

C&K*s Mommie replied:

holley79 replied: Thank you ladies. I don't know where I would be without this place.

I guess when DH picked Annika up he ratted me out to CCP#4. I asked her how Annika's day was and she told me to have a seat. She told me not to worry that Annika is a baby. Babies cry. They miss their mamas all you can do is try and keep them entertained and thoughts of mommy to a minimum till mommy/ daddy is there to get them. She also told me when I leave her house after dropping off Annika I don't need to stress. She is in good hands and she is not going to leave me stranded. She also said she didn't know what other people had done to me but I needed to worry about work and work only.

I felt much better.

CantWait replied: She sounds like a keeper.

holley79 replied:
That's what I'm thinking to.

kimberley replied: i am glad you are changing your perspective on things and feeling a bit better. sorry it's been such a roller coaster but hopefully this new one will work out and be better than the rest. hang in there and give your cutie a hug from me!