My baby is an angel now

Mama~Love wrote: Had an U/S today, and there was no heartbeat. Baby stopped growing about 3 weeks ago, and the progesterone I've been taking has just delayed the inevitable. I'm totally devastated, and hurting so bad. This has never happened to me before.

I'm waiting to miscarry naturally at home, and we'll plant a tree when we bury the baby. I can't believe I'm going through this .

bluebear replied: I'm so sorry
I hope nothing but positivity rolls your way now

mckayleesmom replied: Sorry this happened to you Mollie. Tons of prayers to you and your family.

boyohboyohboy replied: mollie I am so sorry..

kimberley replied: oh Mollie, i am so sorry!!! i am here if you need to talk. prayers and strength your way.

Our Lil' Family replied: I'm so sorry Mollie! It hurts so badly I know! We did exactly what you are wanting to do. As bad as it was I couldn't imagine being anywhere other than my own home when it happened. Thankfully my Dr. understood and didn't push a D&C. We also planted a tree and buried the baby. I will be thinking about you in the coming days, the waiting is awful, it's all awful!

3_call_me_mama replied: OHH mama! I am so sorry for you loss.. i am still upset about your phone call this morning! !I sooo wish i lived closer and could be there to give you a real hug!! My prayers are with you. healing vibes to you!!!

PrairieMom replied: OMG Mollie. I am so sorry.

Mama~Love replied: Thanks everyone. I really appreciate the support. I don't know how I'll get through this, but will try.

amymom replied: Oh My Mollie, I know how hard it is. As you know my SIL is dealing with this exact same thing right now. My prayers are with you as well.

3xsthefun replied: I'm so sorry Mollie.

Calimama replied: I'm so sorry.

kit_kats_mom replied: I'm so sorry Mollie. I'll keep you and your family in my thoughts.

Maddie&EthansMom replied: My heart hurts so bad for you right now, Friend. I am so very sorry. I'm praying for healing and comfort. Love and hugs.

mom21kid2dogs replied: So sorry

5littleladies replied: I'm so sorry Mollie. I do understand what you are going through and I will be praying for you.

coasterqueen replied: Oh Mollie, I am so very sorry.

MomToJade&Jordan replied: Oh Mollie hun I am so sorry to hear this news Lots of prayers for you and your family.

MoonMama replied: I am so sorry!!

CantWait replied: Mollie I'm so very sorry, my heart aches for you as I know the heartache all to well. If you need someone to talk to, please don't hesitate to message me.

Mama~Love replied: Thanks everyone. Most of you don't know this, but I needed help with fertility drugs to get pregnant. After Abby, I never had a period for over 3 years. At first, I thought it was just because of breastfeeding, but I was more worried as time went on. I went from Dr. to Dr., trying to find a cause, and finally last Nov. '09, I found the OB I'm seeing now.

He found out I have PCOS, and my ovarian function is declining already. I'm only 33, but he says this sometimes happens. So, he gave me Provera to start a period (which was BAD), and then Clomid. It took us 5 months to get pregnant, with a lot of heartache and frustration along the way.

So, this baby was truly special and well-loved before conception. At least I know the meds work, and I can still get pregnant.

I told the girls last night, and they took it pretty hard. They were crying, so was I, and I told them if they ever want to talk about it, it's OK to come to me. I told them that Mama will be really sad for awhile, and might be crying a lot. Daddy told them to make sure to give Mama extra hugs & kisses.

I'm starting to cramp pretty bad, so I hope it's over soon. I'm scared though, scared I'm going to bleed way too much (I always do w/ my AF's & postpartum). DH is working out-of-town today, the boys are gone to their dad's, so it's just me & the girls. I'm thinking about scheduling a D&C next week if it doesn't happen this weekend. I keep going back & forth on it.

kimberley replied: i wish i could do more than give you cyber hugs. i know how hard this must be for you. i didn't do a d&c with either m/c... it was hard but not clinical. sending strength your way.

~Roo'sMama~ replied: I'm so sorry Mollie!

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CantWait replied:
I'm sorry. I've gone natural and had d/c's, both have there pros and cons. I hope it is over quick for you.

Mommy2Isabella replied: So sorry for your loss.

Danalana replied: I'm so sorry I know the pain of loss so very well...I pray it happens quickly and that you are able to heal easily, emotionally and physically.

jcc64 replied: I'm sorry, Mollie. I wish you strength as you recover and grieve.
If it helps, I had a m/c and went on the very next month to get pg with my dd, who's now 7. And I was a lot older than you are--37--so there's still hope for another baby, if that's what you wish.

youngmomofone replied: I'm so sorry

A&A'smommy replied: I'm SO SO SO sorry to hear this... I wish I could say something to make you feel better

My3LilMonkeys replied: I'm so sorry.

Mama~Love replied: I'm starting to bleed today, so I'm going to try getting through this at home if I can. I hope it's over with quickly.

Mama~Love replied: Have a D&C scheduled for tomorrow. Bleeding has stopped for now.

amymom replied:
I am so sorry, Take good care of yourself through this.

MommyToAshley replied: I don't know how I missed this post.

I am sorry Mollie. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Please take care of yourself, get lots of rest, and be sure to let us know how you are doing.

Kirstenmumof3 replied: I'm so sorry to hear this!!! My thoughts and prayers are with you!

Boys r us replied: I'm so sorry!!

Mama~Love replied: Well, I had the D&C done. Pretty traumatic, never ever want to go through that again.

The hospital was very nice. They have a spot reserved at the cemetery for miscarried babies, so that's where my baby will go. We also got a tiny gold ring I'm going to put on a gold chain & wear around my neck.

Emotionally, I'm so drained. It was a very hard day, filled with tears. DH got the tree planted in our yard in honor of the baby. We bought it yesterday. It's a silver maple. It looks lovely. I don't have any pictures yet though.

I hope I can start healing now, both physically & emotionally. Will just take it one day at a time.

Thank you so much for all of the support you all have given me. It has meant so much to me.

5littleladies replied: I'm sorry you had to have the d&c, but I'm glad it's over. Healing takes time, hang in there.

When I had my second miscarriage, I was able to bring his little body to the hospital and they were able to place him in a cemetery for miscarried babies. I've never gone there (it isn't in our town) but it has really been nice knowing I have the option.

My2Beauties replied: Mollie I'm so sorry I haven't seen this post until today! My thoughts are with you and I'm so sorry you are having to go through this.

coasterqueen replied: Just want to send you some ((HUGS)) today, Mollie. I am so sorry, hun.