Things are getting worse!

Kirstenmumof3 wrote: I'm sorry but I need to write this out. I don't mean to bring you all down. I'm so tired and the lack of sleep is playing havoc with my mind. I'm so sad and having a really rough time. I keep snapping at the kids and DH. Actually I find myself snapping at everyone. This is a warning sign for me and I guess this is making me worry that things will get worse. I feel so alone, I know this isn't true, but I just feel so alone. I haven't slept in about 3 nights. I'm exhausted and my thoughts are getting so irrational. I've talked to my DH, he knows what is going on, he knows my fears. If I could just sleep things would improve, if I could just sleep things would get so much better. I'm sorry, I'm just so depressed!

Heather replied: AWw sweetie. I am so sorry you are depressed. Is there something your doc can prescribe to give you a better nights sleep? I know it is tough with kiddos, but knowing your warning signs your hubby should be able to agree to help you out here. I hope something helpful comes your way. (BIG HUGS)

ediep replied: I am so sorry that you are not feeling well. Stay strong!! We are here for you!

kimberley replied: i am sorry you are feeling this way is there a relative or friend who can come over and help with the kids for a couple of nights? have you thought about talking to your doctor about this? i have also been a little depressed and overwhelmed but it really helps to talk about it. (((big hugs))) and lots of ~~~calming vibes~~~ coming your way. we are hear if you need to talk!

~Daddytobe~ replied: ((((HUG)))) I am so sorry you are feeling down. I hope you can get through this feeling of depression and other feelings you may have soon and become the happy person you truely are...((((HUGS))))

coasterqueen replied: I am so sorry you are down and not getting sleep. I agree with Heather, is there something your doctor can prescribe you to help you sleep?

amynicole21 replied: Honey, I don't know what to say! I wish I could come there and give you a big hug and a dose of some sleeping meds. Has your doc said anything about getting you on those? Please know that I'm worried about you, thinking about you and wishing this would pass.

MommyToAshley replied: Kirsten, (((((HUGS))))))
I am sorry you are feeling this way. Lack of sleep can really play havok on a person, what a difference a good night's sleep will make. Please do whatever you can to get some rest... let your DH, relatives or a friend take care of the kids so you can sleep. I hope you are feeling better soon... you are in my thoughts and prayers. (((HUGS)))

Kirstenmumof3 replied: My DH has been absolutely wonderful! Saturday morning he took all 3 kids out for a drive. They had to deliver some flyers and take some extra garbage to the dump. All 3 kids behaved so well for him. I tried to go to sleep while they were gone, I took a hot bath and just layed in bed until they got home. In the afternoon DH took our DS grocery shopping and my DD was a big help with Claudia. I spent the afternoon cleaning the basement thinking that this would tire me out and I would be able to sleep tonight, doesn't look like that is going to happen. I do have a prescription for sleeping medication, but the side affects are just awful and my doctor has suggested I don't use this anymore. I don't use sleeping meds on a regular basis, only as needed, but this prescription is different from any other ones I have used. My psychologist can't prescribe sleeping meds, but I'm sure if things get too bad he can consult with the psychiatrist that I see when I am in the hospital to see what he could prescribe. My mom came over this evening and took DD and DS skating and then to McDonalds for supper. DH made us a nice steak dinner. I am so sorry to worry everyone, please don't worry. My DH is taking very good care of me and I have been in touch with our local Crisis Team. They too have been very supportive. Thank You all so much for your kind words and your support, this means a lot to me. It's an up and down battle fighting a mental illness, but one that won't last forever.

aspenblue1 replied: I am so sorry. I hope you get some sleep soon. You may want to have your doctor check to see what he can prescribe you.

CantWait replied: I'm so sorry things aren't going well for you right now. I wish I knew what to say and had some words of wisdom. All I can do is give you my love and support. Hugs

MommyToAshley replied: I am soo glad you have such a wonderful husband and great support system around you. I hope you have gotten some sleep and are feeling better.

Maddie&EthansMom replied: Sending lots of sleepy vibes your way. I hope you feel better soon and are back to yourself in no time. (((HUGS)))