dreading an upcoming date - july 14th

mummy2girls wrote: I am right now as i am typing this.... My sons anniversary of his death is on monday and i am dreading that day. I am always an emotional wreck on that day. I dont know what im going to do yet to remember him on that day. It will be 4 years since losing him and it just seems like my wound reopens on that day every year. It feels like i am doing great until that day comes and im a wreck. It feels as if this happened just yesterday. I see myself reliving the last moments of his life and how he died and why he died. I hope i get through that day....

amynicole21 replied: I'll be sending you lots of love and strength on that day. You'll be in my thoughts.

supermom replied: Some great big to you - and you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

booey2 replied: All I can offer is hugs to you as I can't say that I know what you are going thru. You will be in my thoughts and prayers today and on Monday.

mummyof2boyz replied: Great big Hugs to you. I hope Monday goes well for you.

Kaitlin'smom replied: big hugs to you. I am soo sorry for your loss. I really dont have a clue what your going through, I can only imagine its very hard.

I dont know how to ask this so if I am way out of line please forgive me, but how did he die? I know most people dont want to talk about things like that but its seems(to me) like you would like to. Maybe it will help you if you share it. If you dont wanna post it thats fine you could e-mail me the story. I will listen (well read) and offer any support I can. This offer also goes out to anyone who has lost there little one and want to talk and share there memory.

ediep replied:

I am so sorry for your loss.

I'll be sending you positive thoughts and prayers that day

jcc64 replied: I can't imagine the depth of the pain you must feel. All I can say is I admire the strength and courage it takes to put one foot in front of the other and carry on for the good of the rest of your family. I would imagine it would do some good to talk to people who've suffered a similiar loss- is there a grieving parents support group in your area? Most hospitals could probably direct you to one. I'm so sorry you have to go through this.
peace to you,
Jeanne

mummy2girls replied:
My son was born june 27th 1999. He was diagnosed 2 days later with Hirschsprungs disease. It affects the bowels, colon, and intestines(gastro sysytem). Jordan couldnt poop on his own and needed an operation at 6 weeks old. He was in the n.i.c.u for 7 days discharged and 4 days later he got sick again so he was in the peds ward. He developed an infection that night so he was transferred to the p.i.c.u he was there for 2 days and then he had emergency operation and after that he lapsed into a coma and eventually went brain dead a few days later. I did donate his organs..his heart went to a very sick boy (who had a twin sister) and his kidneys styaed here and went to a sick girl.

The whole long story of what happened is in the website i did of him... http://www.geocities.com/angel_jordan1999/shelly.html

Thank you I needed to talk about him....

maliksmommy replied: Big Hugs to you and your family We are all here for you if you need a shoulder to cry on.

Kaitlin'smom replied: [QUOTE]Thank you I needed to talk about him.... [QUOTE]

your welcome and thank you for sharing that with me, its help be to better understand what you went through. I wish I could be there and give you a big hug.

Mommieto2Girls replied: I am so sorry for your loss, You and your family will be in my thought and prayers.

Schnoogly replied: I'm so sorry, I can barely imagine how you must feel. I am dreading the anniversary of Iain's surgery, and he is still here. Can you plant a tree or something? Maybe finding some way to express your grief. I think it would be wonderful to make a book or something with pictures that tells the story of his birth and life, and read it with Jenna. You could do this every year--it would help her to know that she had a brother.

Kirstenmumof3 replied: Keeping you in my Thoughts and Prayers! I am so sorry you are going through this!

MommyToAshley replied:

Sending you lots of hugs and support! I wish I was there to give you a great big hug in person!

I remember you shared a picture of him with us not to long ago, would you mind posting that picture again? He is such a precious Angel, I would love to see his face again.

You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers!

Kaitlin'smom replied:

ypu can go to the web site she posted a few back and see more. I did.

catou_98 replied: I'm soooo sorry for you loss, I can't imagine how hard it must be to go thru this over again every year! I wish I could give you a hug in person! I'll be saying a prayer on monday for your sweet angel! and for you to help you have a better day!

mummy2girls replied: Here is a pic mom2ashley

MommyToAshley replied: I knew you had posted a bigger picture of him. Thanks for sharing your little angel with us.

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