having a lousy day :(

kimberley wrote: i am so tired and frustrated i don't know whether to scream at the top of my lungs or cry in a corner . i really love this baby and am thankful for being blessed with this pg but it is so hard. rarely anyone asks about the baby or seems to care that i am pg. i am averaging about 5hrs max of sleep/day and am burnt out. i get up early to get the boys ready for school, have Jade, meals and the house all day, then DH gets home at midnight and Jade gets up and wants to play with him. it has been weeks since i haven't seen 3am. anytime i ask for help with chores or the kids, i am made to feel like a burden and DH seems annoyed when it is messy when he gets home cuz Jade tore apart the living room for the millionth time today . there is soooooo much work to do in this house and i have no one to help me and only 2mos til the baby comes. the bills are suffering because i am not working and i feel like all i can do is sit back and watch my credit get destroyed like watching a train wreck. it is so frustrating. i wish i could take the belly off and take control of everything again .
it doesn't help that the weather has been windy, dark and wet and we have no heat or any hope of affording heat for at least a month. and i think i am getting sick for the second time in a month. i also missed my mw appt this morning cuz i overslept and so did DH. does amnio fluid have an odor? i am leaking clear fluid for a few days now and not sure what it is. baby seems active as usual so i guess it's ok. sorry for whining but i just needed to get it out. thanks for reading.

ammommy replied: Oh, Kimberly, it sounds like you need a great big

coasterqueen replied: Ahhh Kimberley... I wish I could come help. I'd bring the girls and between the kids and me we could keep that place clean for you. Well maybe not if I brought my kids.

Sounds like the weather is getting you down too. Hopefully it will change and things will get better. You know first hand how when you get farther along in pg you get tired, depressed, sad and just want that baby out so you can get back to normal....you'll get there .

Have you tried talking to Jamie about how you feel? Maybe strap him down to the couch and say "listen her buddy, this is the way it's gotta be or else".

As far as the fluid, not sure if it smells. Could you be having lots of discharge instead? Hmmm. Not sure. Did you reschedule?

chloe&tysmommy replied: first off....

is there anyone that could help you out for awhile or take the kids every now and then so you can have a break? I only have two kids but being with them 24/7 sure plays me out so I can only imagine what your going through plus being pregnant..oy I hope things start looking up for you really soon....

Kaitlin'smom replied: I woudl so come pamper you for a day if I could. Sounds like the weathe ris bringin you down along with getting close to the end of PG.



hope you feel better soon

Aprilnewbee replied: Try to relax a bit the stress you feel can be felt by the baby. And that has been known to have adverse affects on the baby.
Call someone to take the kids for a few days, on day one clean.
On day two, relax and enjoy being in a clean house alone.

I would defantly get your appt rescheduled. Some amnio fluid can smell depends what is in the water (bacteria, etc.) You are probably just having a heavy discharge but you don't want to take any chances anyways.

Good luck, hope you feel better soon.

Beth

redchief replied: Amniotic fluid generally has no odor.

I'm sorry you're having a bad time Kimberley... Keep your head up kiddo!

jcc64 replied: I'm sorry you're down in the dumps today, Kimberly. Kwim about the relentless day to day grind, and to be pg on top of it, I'm tired just thinking about you. I'm sure the weather is a bigger factor than you realize as well. (no heat would make me a very cranky girl, especially up there). And the money problems, they just suck the life out of you, don't they??
You're entitled to feel sorry for yourself, Kimberly. You normally do such a good job seeing the silver lining in everything, but reality does comes a knockin' once and awhile. I know it's overwhelming, but try not to take it all in at once. Chip away, one crisis at a time, and as for dh, he was a good boy the other day, he'll get back there again I'm sure. In the meantime, hugs to you.

Hillbilly Housewife replied: Oh Kim...

amnio fluid generally doesn`t have an odor. If it doesn`t smell like urine.... maybe just go to the clinic and ask for the little paper test to see if that`s what it is....?

Can your boys help a little with housework?

kimberley replied: thanks guys. ugh i hate being weepy . i don't have anyone who will take the kids for any length of time. all the grandparents work and Jade really won't stay with anyone but DH without crying endlessly. i have tried talking to DH but he doesn't say much. he will help out with the odd thing here and there but doesn't exert himself since he is the one working. the boys do help with the odd chore but they are still pretty small and i end up redoing half of what they do.

i don't feel like i need a "me" break or that i am tired of being pg.. i just feel like i need a helping hand with painting and cleaning and about 8 extra hours in a day to get stuff done. that and some kinda job because i feel like a burden to everyone financially... like somehow this is all my fault and everyone in the family is incovenienced by my pg. until today, my spirits have been pretty good considering the circumstances.

i didn't reschedule my appt cuz i am already going every 2wks now so i will just wait til the next one. i have noticed extra discharge in the past few weeks but this fluid is new and odorless. maybe i will call in to be sure.

thanks again for the hugs.

ediep replied: Kimberely

Sorry you aren't feeling well, you are entitled be grouchy

wish I could offer more help

mammag replied: I'm so sorry Kimberley! I know we've all probably had moments like that when it just seems like everything is going wrong and things that used to be simple aren't....etc. etc. etc.

Big big for you. Hope things calm down for you and you are feeling better soon!

Try to take care of yourself and get some rest so you are better able to handle all the troubles....I know, easier said than done (I've been there....)

kit_kats_mom replied: Oh I'm so sorry you are having a rough go of it today. I know that even not being pregnant, a lack of sleep interferes with my ability to be even mildly tolerable.

I hope things start looking up soon. I'd go to the clinic just to check on the fluid.

3xsthefun replied: Kimberely I'm so sorry.

I really wish I could help you out.

Try to take it easy and take care of yourself. I sure hope things get better for you!

gr33n3y3z replied: It will get better Kimberley

(((((Hugs)))))