its so hard to understand...LONG - lost first pregnancy

AJD495 wrote: Hi, i've never posted in this part before, but i thought it would be appropriate for this time...and I just need to let my story out basically. My husband and I, he is 25, and i am 21, are very happily married, and are praying for a large family in the future, but thats all in God's hands...we had thought i was pregnant a couple times before, but this time it was confirmed...and my husband and i were on vacation when i was about 7 weeks along and i went to use the bathroom and had a lot of bleeding, large clots and all and i was scared i just cried and cried, figuring it was over, but when we got back into town, i went to the ER and they confirmed that everything was just fine and that the bleeding was from my cervix, and they sent me to my OB doctor, and they did an ultrasound and everything was confirmed to be ok, the baby was fine, and i actually heard the heart beat at 7weeks, which was a huge relief...well i had on and off light bleeding the entire pregnancy but that didnt seem to be a big deal to the doctors, and then I had a check up at 11 weeks or so, and my doctor said that everything seemed fine, my uterus was getting larger, etc. well 2 weeks later, or so i went to use the bathroom and started bleeding uncontrollably, so my husband rushed me to the ER, and they did all sorts of stuff, and confirmed i had miscarried, and supposedly couldnt see any form of pregnancy any more at all in my uterus so they said they didnt think they needed to do a D&C. and sent me home, and the bleeding slowed down in the next few days and i thought ok, whew, that was a terrible tragedy, but we can move on from here...well then sunday the bleeding picked up again but just slightly, then monday night, started really heavy again...so we had to go back to the ER yet again, and they said they needed to do an emergancy D&C, so i went into surgery at midnight, and was admitted to the hospital the next day...well the weird part was that when we were on our way to the ER and when we were in the ER, i thought i was having severe cramping, well come to find out the dr. said after surgery that i had been in labor, because the fetal remains were halfway out when i went into surgery...well then i thought ok, thats over, so lets recover and move on...well then they informed me that my blood level was down to 6.6 and it is suppose to be at 12...so they made me stay the whole next day, and gave me a blood transfusion of 2 units....but now i'm home and trying to get my strength back physically as well as deal w/all the emotional stuff as well...so anyways thats my story, if you could just keep us in your thoughts and prayers we would greatly appreciate it, and i will be doing the same for all of you as well...take care and God bless.

amymom replied: Oh WOW, I am so sorry. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Please take care of yourself.

gr33n3y3z replied: I'm so sorry to hear that
((hugs)) and prayers

luvbug00 replied: OMG I'm so sorry for your loss. I will pray that you have a safe recovery and that you can find the strenth to get threw this greif. My heart goes out to you. Many if you want to talk we are here and feel free to pm me if you want.

mckayleesmom replied: Hugs and prayers to you and your husband right now.

Sarah&Mackenzie replied: My prayers and thoughts are with you and your DH!

mysweetpeasWil&Wes replied: I'm sorry for your loss. Many hugs to get you through this difficult time.

sunshine girls replied: I'm sorry, my prayers and thoughts are with you and your husband.

jem0622 replied: I am sorry to hear that you lost your baby. You do need a good support system right now. I miscarried just before the 15 wk mark before having my girls and it was a very hard thing to understand and work through.

Lots of hugs

six_kids_at_28 replied: I am very sorry that you and your Dh are going through this hard time. My prayers are with you

AJD495 replied: thanks for all the support and responses, it has been extremely difficult lately, but i think i'm starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel...as well as i have sorta a funny story. for the last week or more, there has been this bunny rabbit in our back yard, she is very huge and never moves from one spot so my husband thinks that she is pregnant, which was kinda odd timing w/us losing our baby and all...but neways...so i have been going out and checking on her every day, and there she sits, i've thrown her food but she doesnt eat it, but she never left that one spot, and at the same time i really was trying to just hide and cover up the emotional side of our loss, cuz i was so mad and angry i didnt want to think about it...well then the other night, i really broke down and bawled and bawled in my husband's arms, and let it all out sorta thing, and i felt so much better the next day. Well that morning i went outside to check on my bunny, and she was gone, all that was left was her imprint in the grass, because where she had been sitting was kinda tall, so you can see exactly where she sat, and she hasnt been back since...so idk if she was a sign from God, or a symbol or something, but i found some comfort in her being there, but neways...i dont know what she has to do w/our situation, i just found it odd, that she never moved and the day i released my feelings, she left and never came back, so neways, if neone has ne thoughts or nething i'd love to hear them, so thanks for listening to me again.

MomToJade&Jordan replied: I am so sorry for your loss. I had 2 m/c and a D&C with my first as well. After all of the heartache God blessed me with my first child Jade and his second blessing came just 2 weeks ago with my daughter Jordan. Get some rest and give yourself some time to heal. My prayers are with you.

adixon24 replied: My thoughts and prayers are with you, hang in there you'll get through this I'm praying for you

CantWait replied: I thought I had posted to you earlier, but I guess not. I'm so sorry for your loss. You're very lucky to have had that bunny come to you.