me feel bad:(

mummy2girls wrote: Hi guys. as most of you know and can tell i dont really talk about my pregnancy! Dont get me wrong I am really happy and excited to see my new angel and to be a mom once again:) I am just holding back in wanting to really have this bond with the child. i know it sounds horrible and not something an expected mom should feel. But i just dont know what i would do if i developed such a strong bond and then have him or her taken away from me:( I was this way with jennas pregnancy as well. I even didnt hold her after she was all cleaned up. I felt i didnt want to bond with her until i knew she was perfectly healthy before i let myself. I know that sounds horrible. Once she pooped I was so relieved and then all the vent up love i was holding back just flooded out and i was shaking so badly i had to have the nurse change her for me. so if you guys dont hear me talk about this pregnancy its not because im not happtya nd such because i am.. Does this all make sense. Please dont think im horrible:(

please dont feel you cant ask me about my pregnancy because i will answer and i wont be hurt by it. I just feel i cant "bond" until i am holding that healthy pooping machine in my arms...

mysweetpeasWil&Wes replied: I'm glad you had the courage to write about these feelings. It's nothing to be ashamed about, not that you are, but it is actually quite common. I was wondering what, if anything, had happened and was too afraid to ask, so thanks for letting us know. You had a ticker and now it's gone. Shelly, you are in my thoughts and I again congratulate you on your PG. Happy 9 months!

gr33n3y3z replied: Oh dont feel bad
Things will work out just fine
Hugs

luvbug00 replied: We are all here for you and we wish you only the best !!!!

mckayleesmom replied: That makes complete sense to me and we totally understand. Honestly, some of us were wondering if something happened cause you took your ticker down. But Im glad all is well. Im gonna ask the first new baby question for the day....Have you thought of any names yet?

mammag replied: Don't feel bad! We understand. Everything will be okay.

Lots of hugs!!!

mummy2girls replied:
yes and no... boys i havent yet... girls i have... I have always LOVED the name Brianna for a girl and aron hated it but this time around i can if i want...LOL. So i was thinking Brianna Elizabeth...

MommyToAshley replied: Don't feel bad about how you feel... it's completely understandable. I am glad you feel comfortable enough to let us know how you are feeling. We're here for you.

I noticed that you had taken your ticker down, but I figured you would tell us why when you were ready.

A&A'smommy replied: (((((HUGS))))) I know hun, It doesn't sound horrible at all!!

A&A'smommy replied:
I LOVE that name its pretty!!

Maddie&EthansMom replied: Oh goodness! That is perfectly understandable, hun! I would be so frightened, too. We are here for you when and if you want to talk. You know that. Don't feel ashamed. We know what a wonderful mother you are and that you are happy to be carrying a child.

maestra replied: I'm glad you said something- I was wondering about you too. So, any nausea yet, cravings, etc?

Can you tell I was sick for most of my pregnancies?

mummy2girls replied:
yes i actually started to have ms.. but it went away.. Which is such a relief because With jenna i had massive ms for 6 months..

mummy2girls replied: thanks for understanding guys.... my mom and dad also wont let themselves bond as well because of Jordan. But they are happpy

kayla's mama replied: Don't feel bad!! It is perfectly normal. I couldn't bond with mine until she was born, because of my m/c. My parents were the same way. My dad just did take his gaurd down and she is 3 months. I hope you have a happy and healthy 9 months.

angelhair replied: boy do I understand!!!! after my third miscarriage I did not bond with my daughter because I was so scared. I would not put any appt on the calender because if she did not make it it would be a constant reminder every time I looked at the calender. many times I was convinced that something bad would happen before my next appt and I would freak out. I rented a doppler and checked once sometimes even three or four times to make sure her heart was still beating. in fact I kept all the reciets of the beby stuff I had in case the baby died and I had to take it back. even at the end when she was born the first question was is she ok. so I understand the fear that comes with any kind of loss. we all understand and you are among friends and remember YOUR THOUGHTS ARE NOT WIERD OR ABNORMAL, IN FACT THEY ARE NORMAL AND MANY WOMEN INCLUDING MYSELF HAVE HAD THEM!!!! LOVE DEE