my Angel Jessica 15/02/09

Scarlett1986 wrote:
I am so sad to post here but five days ago my little girl was born sleeping due to being diagnosed with anencephaly. I was 20+5wks gestation and miss feeling my little girl i feel so numb and just want her back inside me. her funeral is on Friday 27th Feb but i just can't face saying goodbye. I tried getting my story out by talking to members of SANDS but didn't really connect with anyone there. Jessica's anencephaly was discovered after been rushed to hospital for a scan after feeling hardly any movement.

Right now I am throughing my energy into looking after my 22 month old daughter.

Scarlett1986 replied:

Kirstenmumof3 replied: I'm so sorry for your loss! My thoughts and prayers are with you!

amymom replied: I am sorry for you. Prayers said for you, her and your 22 mo old too!

Scarlett1986 replied: Thank you so much, it has only been five days and the pain is still so raw Xxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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Scarlett X


My gorgeous little girl, you looked so perfect, so peaceful I long to have you back inside me more than anything but daddy and I had to let you go and be with all the angels, our hearts are broken but our love for you will always remain xxxxxxx

mummy XX

mummy2girls replied:
((((HUGS))))

I am so sorry you lost your beautiful angel. Its hard yes and you willf eel that for a bit but you will get through it. I had losses too .. the pain never goes away you just learn to deal with it and you will carry on:) Your little girl will be a big support to you for sure. If you need to talk pm me anytime i am here!!!

lisar replied:

~Roo'sMama~ replied: I'm so sorry for your loss!

MommyToAshley replied: I am so sorry for your loss and I know first hand that there is no pain greater than the loss of a child. Your story really hit home with me as it reminded me so much of the loss of our son, Joshua. I shared our story a few years ago on this same board. (Here's a link if you want to read our story, but I warn you that my emotions were pretty raw at the time: http://forums.parentingclub.com/index.php?showtopic=5544&hl)

One thing stuck out in your post, and it's the main reason I shared my story with you -- I know it may be very difficult, but I encourage you to go and say good-bye to your daughter. I didn't want to and didn't think I had the strength to say good-bye to Joshua but I am so thankful now that the others around me encouraged me to do so.

Even though I have been through this myself, I never really know what to say because I am sorry just doesn't seem like enough. But, the best advice I can give you is that there is no right way to grieve -- cry, be angry, ignore it, lean on others, do what you need to do to get through the day.

I'm here if you want to talk. We all are.

mckayleesmom replied: Welcome to Parenting Club...Sorry you had to find us for such a sad reason. I hope we can show you the support that you are needing.

I'm so sorry about your little girl.

HuskerMom replied: I'm so sorry for your loss!

jcc64 replied: I'm so very sorry for the loss of your little baby girl. I can't imagine the grief you must be feeling. My best friend's baby boy Jamel was born sleeping at 36 weeks on New Years Eve, due to a knot in the cord. It was a very very difficult year for her, but less than one year later, she had a beautiful, healthy baby boy. The hole in her heart from the loss of Jamel will never fully heal, but it gets a little less raw over time, especially because she has other children to care for. I'm sure she'd be willing to correspond with you if you'd like to talk with someone who's been where you are. Dee Dee and Shelley here at PC have been as well.
I wish you strength and courage to face your grief. Please feel free to lean on us whenever you need to.